Going, going, gone...

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Registered: 02-15-2004
Going, going, gone...
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Thu, 10-20-2005 - 12:41am

Hi girls, here I am again. I have been lurking around the board a while, as often as I can. I try and keep up, but I don't do that well. I miss you all, and I am happy to see some good news around here - especially Nony and Lou's news!

I noticed a post from Pam to me, telling me to come home, I cried. I should have listened. If I would have been here more I would have probably had enough love, support, friendship, and advice to have kept me out of the mess I am in.

My life is a disaster - I am at the end of my rope - clinging on for dear life, and part of me is tired and defeated, and wants to let go. I can't go into specifics now, there are too many problems to even begin to explain. But I feel like going to bed and never waking up.

Well, that's all I have to say - nothing inspirational or even interesting. Just an update on your old friend who misses you.

Many hugs, Sandra

Sandr

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Registered: 01-31-2005
Thu, 10-20-2005 - 4:30pm

((((((((((Sandra))))))))) Please know that we're all here for you. I hope that whatever is going on will ease up soon and you will find some peace in your life.


Big hugs,


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Registered: 02-04-2005
Thu, 10-20-2005 - 4:55pm
Sorry to hear that... Another suicide... very sad.
Hugs,
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Thu, 10-20-2005 - 5:52pm
Oh Laurie, I knew I should have never left this place. I know it will pass, and I believe that you don't get anything you can't handle in life. I just wish I could fast forward my life a little bit. I guess till now I have been very spoiled, used to getting my way. My world is changing and I can't do a thing about it.
I guess I'll have to just ride this one out....
Love, smooches, hugs, Sandra

Sandr

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Thu, 10-20-2005 - 5:54pm
Lesli, Isn't it funny how things change in a matter of seconds. Life is weird. I'll be waiting for that sunshine.....
Hugs, Sandra

Sandr

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Thu, 10-20-2005 - 5:55pm
By the way, what's going on with you? Maybe if I keep reading I'l find out..

Sandr

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Thu, 10-20-2005 - 5:57pm
((((((Cat)))))))
Just being here for me helped so much. We are all such a pitiful bunch these days aren't we? But, we aren't ALONE. Maybe someday we can all look back and laugh. Not today.
Hugs, Sandra

Sandr

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Thu, 10-20-2005 - 5:59pm
((((Lafaye))))
We should just come here more often, that's what we need. Thanks for caring, I'll email you soon.
Hugs, Sandra

Sandr

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Thu, 10-20-2005 - 6:01pm
(((((((Rose)))))))
I think I found someone to talk to, and I am going to be more regular about posting here. I need to talk, it always helps. But, sometimes putting your troubles out for the world to see is difficult. There are alot more people reading here than it appears there are.
Thanks for the advice, Hugs, Sandra

Sandr

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Thu, 10-20-2005 - 6:05pm
(((((Sadie)))))
Thanks for your support, and offer to listen. I wish I could air my dirty laundry here, if it was just a certain dozen of you reading, but I know that's not the case. I can't really use the board as my safe place anymore. sigh
Good things are in my life too though - I reconnected with an old friend, and I think she will be a great listener. I'll email you soon....
Hugs, Sandra

Sandr

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Thu, 10-20-2005 - 6:08pm
((((Pam))))))
Thanks for sparing me, I know I have it coming. *wink*
I was a fool to ever leave this community, it really is where I feel best.
And of course, as you knew from day one, I just love you and can't believe I didn't utilize my best resource all these months!
Huge hugs to Nurse Pam, Sandra

Sandr