Going, going, gone...

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Registered: 02-15-2004
Going, going, gone...
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Thu, 10-20-2005 - 12:41am

Hi girls, here I am again. I have been lurking around the board a while, as often as I can. I try and keep up, but I don't do that well. I miss you all, and I am happy to see some good news around here - especially Nony and Lou's news!

I noticed a post from Pam to me, telling me to come home, I cried. I should have listened. If I would have been here more I would have probably had enough love, support, friendship, and advice to have kept me out of the mess I am in.

My life is a disaster - I am at the end of my rope - clinging on for dear life, and part of me is tired and defeated, and wants to let go. I can't go into specifics now, there are too many problems to even begin to explain. But I feel like going to bed and never waking up.

Well, that's all I have to say - nothing inspirational or even interesting. Just an update on your old friend who misses you.

Many hugs, Sandra

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Thu, 10-20-2005 - 6:11pm
OH Lesli, I am sorry. You are entitled to fall apart once in a while, even if you are a Mom. Just keep one eye open at all times.....lol!
I know exactly how you are feeling. I am SICK of being strong. That's most of my problem.
You know, I work at a hospital and I talk to many doctors everyday, I wish I could get one of them to admit me for a week just to have someone else take care of me for a while!
((((Hugs)))) Sandra

Sandr

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Thu, 10-20-2005 - 6:14pm
(((((Ting)))))
Thanks so much, I am sure I will be fine. I am tired,emotionally tired, and I am also tired of feeling bad. Do you know how that feels? Every freaking day I have to be strong, I just want to fall apart for a little while. I'll survive, as usual.
Hugs, Sandra

Sandr

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Registered: 10-04-2004
Thu, 10-20-2005 - 9:39pm
More *hugs* for you... this board exists in part for us to rally to each other's support. When you feel like curling up... write. Write here, write to yourself, write to anyone... but write. Seeing it in front of you can help be a catalyst for finding your way through.

So much stays unknown 'til the time has come,
Did you ever imagine you could feel so strong,
And what you fear just turn into relief,
Yes see your doubt become your own belief



Pass In Time

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Fri, 10-21-2005 - 1:13am

Sandra,

I know this is a bit late, but I have missed your very refreshing honesty and kindness.

Please stay around, I really miss ya!

Hugs!

 


Hugs,


Sebastian


 


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Fri, 10-21-2005 - 8:57pm
Thank you Gigi, you have been a friend for a long time, I miss you too!
((((((((((Gigi))))))))))))))
Sandra

Sandr

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Sat, 10-22-2005 - 2:12pm


Well, since I don't know the situation (and it really isn't my business), you can email me sometime. Of course, if that's ok with you.

But keep coming around, I really do like seeing you here.

Hugs!

 


Hugs,


Sebastian


 


http://www.facebook.com/sebastianbruce

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Registered: 01-31-2005
Mon, 10-24-2005 - 8:46am

I do know how you feel, Sandra. The good thing is that you CAN be strong and it sounds like you're not afraid to be. It took me a really long time to get to that point and make the changes I made recently. But, yes, it is incredibly exhausting. You need a break from it sometimes. I hope you will get to the point where your strength will lift you up

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Tue, 10-25-2005 - 12:21am
Thanks Ting, I try and keep my hopes up. It's hard. I feel so defeated sometimes. I feel like giving up and sleeping my life away. Unfortunately that won't cut it at work.I guess my only option is to keep on going, keep on trying, and keep looking for peace in my life. I just want to be happy and at peace. Maybe someday. I am really proud of the steps you ahve taken, it's very inspirational. Thanks for your input. I appreciate you. (((((((Ting))))))))))
Sandra

Sandr

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