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| Sun, 12-18-2005 - 11:30pm |
Well, I'm new to this and I just thought that I would give a brief run down of how I got to where I am right now. I'm 21 years old and in a relationship with the most amazing girl. We've been together since April and big steps have been made in regards to my family towards her, but I will get to that in a bit.
I would have to say if any of you asked me when I first started having feelings towards another girl I would have to say it would have been in the summer going into 8th grade. I was really embarrassed and scared by the whole thing and did everything in my power to push it away. I started dating every guy that entered into my life and then when I was ending my 10th grade year in high school, I met a guy that I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with. But as I look back on that relationship, I realize that it was a relationship that was based solely on the fact that I was hiding from something that I was too scared to let out.
Then I went off to college, and still continued to have the relationship with the man. I was unsure what it was that I was looking for but he seemed to have all the right answers so I stuck with him for 4 years. Well for 3 years I was faithful with him and then this girl entered into my life that I was unsure of. I had strong feelings towards her the moment I met her but wasn't too sure what exactly the feelings were pointing me to. We started to hang out the entire second semester of my sophomore year in college and by the end of the semester we were inseperable and cuddling every night. Then I had my first experience with her in the form of a kiss. I wasn't certain if it was meant to be but after that kiss I knew that the feelings I had been trying so hard to push down and out of my life were now at the surface and I really had no way to hide them. I was head over heels for this girl. We dated for a few months. Things were great and I couldn't have asked for anything more.
Then I realized that I had been hiding my feelings for a girl (my current girlfriend), since the moment I met her because I wasn't sure if I was suppose to have feelings toward her. Then one night, she and I sat down and had a very heart to heart conversation. With which I learned she had been wanting to have with me but was waiting until she and I were drunk to have it because she thought that her feelings would come out to me easier. Well needless to say they flowed out very well that evening. But things didn't really progress until the end of the semester and we were both going in different directions. Her to study abroad over in England and I working at my town pool. We both decided that we would take a break and see where our feelings were when we returned back to school. Needless to say my summer wasn't the best because all I could do was think of her and wonder what it was that she was doing with herself.
We retunred back to school and things didn't pick up right away. Partly because she was scared and partly because I was scared. I was afraid that I was going to get hurt. She and I again sat down and had a very in-depth converstaion and realized that all either of us did over the summer was think about each other. That is when I realized that this girl is meant to be in my life for a very very long time.
I hadn't been able to come out to my mother while I was with the first girl, but I feel she suspected something of the sort, considering she was over or I was over all the time. But when I started to see my current girlfriend, I was able to tell my aunt right away and by the end of the summer I was able to tell my mother and my brother. Both of whom are extremely supportive. I was nervous about telling my brother but that is only because he is very bull headed and if he thinks something is wrong he will voice his opinion.
Things with my girl and I are amazing. We are spending New Year's together and I am very excited because I am actually spending it with someone that I can't seem to get enough of. She completes me like no one and I'm very happy.
My mom was shopping today for Christmas presents and called me up to ask me what she should get my girlfriend. That is the first time she refered to her as my girlfriend and it really made my day because she is accepting me for me and not judging me.
Sorry for the length but I've never really been able to share my story before and am just looking for guidience because I'm really scared that I'm going to lose this one when the school year is all said and done.
Thanks,

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Hello carl,
If I may suggest sandwich wrap, the clear plastic wrap that you use for your sandwiches.
Or perhaps a dental dam. As long as you mark your side of the dental dam, the chances of you becoming infected while you are performing oral sex, are very small.
I hope that helps.
Hugs,
Sebastian
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I'm sure they are making those products without latex by now.
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Why thank you, Pammie!
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Hugs,
Sebastian
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