GEEZ, I forgot all about Army. I played that with the boys when I was in junior high even. What a dork I was. It was all about Combat, and then, of course, Viet Nam. Do you remember Combat? You may be a little young for that. :) I would have been scared on the first date, also. You seemed to move through this so seamlessly and easily.
I really wanted to play baseball, but they didn't let girls play back then. I would go to practice and shag balls for my brothers' teams. I would go down the block to the local school and try and prove that I was tough enough to play with the boys in the schoolyard. They would always make me be catcher with no mask.
I think other kids "knew" about me. I did not go to the prom, one of my regrets. It seems that sometimes, though, it's not all it's cracked up to be. When my girlfriends(we raised our kids together, wait until they find out who they've been sleeping with!)talk about that, I sit quietly and listen. I have always been afraid somebody would ask me about the boy I went with or what my dress was like. They get caught up in their stories, though, and just pass me by. Maybe they know, too. lol
Caly, okay, maybe not so seamlessly. That is very sad. The whole denial thing is so awful. I feel like that wasted so much time. Sorry that was the way it was. Now you're just a cool chick! A Hot Mama!
I can identify on the naievness at an early age. I always though I could read a book and find all the answers. Well, the funny thing about books, they describe feelings, and even though books are great resources for finding out the definition about people that I can identify with, there's nothing like real-life experiences. To continue further, as I got a little older and less sheltered, I began to meet other women that I felt a particular bond with, I met several other lesbians at sporting events, like a softball game, and eventually, I joined a softball team, lol! After a while, I began to feel comfortable and I looked at real life lesbians in a different light, and the rest is history.
I remember being a tomboy sort of girl. I hated dresses and girls toys. Finally my mom wall papered my bedroom in floral wall paper and painted the furniture white. I hated it! I was just little then. In 3rd grade I had the biggest crush on my teacher and was so sad when she announced she was getting married. Mom explained to me the birds and the bees I guess to help explain why I could not marry her. That made me even more sure I liked girls. 9th grade I met a girl who was in 10th grade, we became best friends and slept over each other's houses every weekend. We would snuggle and kiss but nothing else. We had boyfriends and were in the band so we spent alot of time together on band trips etc. Right after highschool I joined the navy and in bootcamp is where I realized that I was a lesbian. One night one of the women kissed my and my knees went week. I had my first real g/f at my first duty station. My mom always asked me if I was gay and I denied it at first then finally she asked and I told her that I was. Hugs, Laurie
Wow! Very interesting story. I am sorry that your family has disowned you. I cannot even fathom what that would be like. Even when my family just found out and were trying to come to terms with it they did not push me away. I am glad that you have your partner and friends. Hugs, Laurie
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Hi SB!
Hey Annie!
Thanks for reposting this.
GEEZ, I forgot all about Army. I played that with the boys when I was in junior high even. What a dork I was. It was all about Combat, and then, of course, Viet Nam. Do you remember Combat? You may be a little young for that. :) I would have been scared on the first date, also. You seemed to move through this so seamlessly and easily.
I really wanted to play baseball, but they didn't let girls play back then. I would go to practice and shag balls for my brothers' teams. I would go down the block to the local school and try and prove that I was tough enough to play with the boys in the schoolyard. They would always make me be catcher with no mask.
I think other kids "knew" about me. I did not go to the prom, one of my regrets. It seems that sometimes, though, it's not all it's cracked up to be. When my girlfriends(we raised our kids together, wait until they find out who they've been sleeping with!)talk about that, I sit quietly and listen. I have always been afraid somebody would ask me about the boy I went with or what my dress was like. They get caught up in their stories, though, and just pass me by. Maybe they know, too. lol
LiT, Blue (still waiting for the toaster)
Caly, okay, maybe not so seamlessly. That is very sad. The whole denial thing is so awful. I feel like that wasted so much time. Sorry that was the way it was. Now you're just a cool chick! A Hot Mama!
Blue
I can identify on the naievness at an early age. I always though I could read a book and find all the answers. Well, the funny thing about books, they describe feelings, and even though books are great resources for finding out the definition about people that I can identify with, there's nothing like real-life experiences. To continue further, as I got a little older and less sheltered, I began to meet other women that I felt a particular bond with, I met several other lesbians at sporting events, like a softball game, and eventually, I joined a softball team, lol! After a while, I began to feel comfortable and I looked at real life lesbians in a different light, and the rest is history.
Thanks and hugs,
Sebastian
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Sebastian
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Finally my mom wall papered my bedroom in floral wall paper and painted the furniture white.
I hated it! I was just little then.
In 3rd grade I had the biggest crush on my teacher and was so sad when she announced she was getting married.
Mom explained to me the birds and the bees I guess to help explain why I could not marry her.
That made me even more sure I liked girls.
9th grade I met a girl who was in 10th grade, we became best friends and slept over each other's houses every weekend. We would snuggle and kiss but nothing else. We had boyfriends and were in the band so we spent alot of time together on band trips etc.
Right after highschool I joined the navy and in bootcamp is where I realized that I was a lesbian.
One night one of the women kissed my and my knees went week.
I had my first real g/f at my first duty station.
My mom always asked me if I was gay and I denied it at first then finally she asked and I told her that I was.
Hugs,
Laurie
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My web pages
http://homepage.mac.com/lauriedav/PhotoAlbum1.html http://hometown.aol.com/didoangst/myhomepage/photo.html
My web pages
http://homepage.mac.com/lauriedav/PhotoAlbum1.html http://hometown.aol.com/didoangst/myhomepage/photo.html
Even when my family just found out and were trying to come to terms with it they did not push me away.
I am glad that you have your partner and friends.
Hugs,
Laurie
My web pages
http://homepage.mac.com/lauriedav/PhotoAlbum1.html http://hometown.aol.com/didoangst/myhomepage/photo.html
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