I had to let her go
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| Fri, 05-18-2007 - 5:17pm |
Oh jesus this hurts. I can't go into the details of it right now, too fresh, and I know Dawn and I only saw each other for 3 months...I'm not the type pf person to fall so fast if it wasn't right...not to mention even Thinking about marrying the woman, but I got fed up with some behavior of hers that I could no longer handle...so I said 'you can have your freedom back, you are released form your committment to me". That was yesterday morning, seems a month ago. It may be just a break between us for her to get her act together and me to really focus even more on my goals witb total energy.....but I've never hurt this badly over another woman before.
I feel numb and in excrusiating pain at the same time.
Dawn Susan Antonia Gulesich Fabiano...damn you....God I miss you.
Brandy Lynn Hatfield (Designergrl47)

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I am so sorry... I hope it is only a break and what ever it was can be fixed.
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I don't know what will happen...I am learning thru others that all may not be as it seems, or perhaps Dawn just has cold feet.Which I undertand, and I was willing to watch her grow and work thru things with us being together. But perhaps she needs to do it separately. (smile) Funny, just as I write that last statement, in spite of my confusing and not knowing what to believe, who to believe or trust right now.....that gives me a bit of hope.That perhaps she just needs to be alone again for awhile.That being with me, brought up some issues that she needs to deal with. That's ok. Ia m angry becasue I feel angry, but perhaps, I'll alaso hang onto some compassion for her, as well as myself.
Thansk, Laurie and Caly.
Brandy
"Thoughts are things! Think Good ones!"
I wish I could be of more help.
Maybe it is better that she works her issues out on her own instead of dragging you down with her right now. Maybe that is what she is thinking. It is hard to know.
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Laurie
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Aw ((((((Brandy)))))
Just tears your guts our, you are right. I wish I could do something for you to take away the pain. It hurts just as much as if somebody rolled over you and never looked back. At least broken bones heal faster, I think.
Time, time, time, that's what they all say and this is really fresh for you. Refocus on your goals, but take the time to get some of you back, too.
I'm so sorry. :(
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Brandy, I am so sorry to see you hurting like this.
Please though, for her sake and for yours... will you edit out her name from your post?
Brandy,
First of Nony is right, its really not fair to her especially in the world of the internet where people we have no idea about lurk all the time.
You are right about the "outing"..and I appologize to...whomever, everyone. But she works for a gayfriendly company, but that's no excuse. It was the pain talking. Speaking of talking, we are and will get together tomorrow to do more , face to face. Turns out that Someone approached her at the LGBT Center here and started saying all kinds of awful things about me, someone I do not know, really horrid things , as well as made an anonymous call to her. So she has been sitting on that for a while and seething. The gist of it is that I do not know anyone in our community here (described like she was to me) that knows me or would do such. I am floored.
But she still loves me, misses me (as I do her) and we ar gonna do someseriosu talking. Thanks guys for the hugs, and please say a prayer or two, if you would, that it all works out the way it's supposed to......with as little pain as possible.
Brandy
"Thoughts are things! Think Good ones!"
((((((((Brandy))))))))
I'm so sorry. Sounds like you did the right thing for now, though. I hope you two can keep talking. We've missed you around here. Hope we'll see more of you.
Big hugs
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