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| Sun, 05-20-2007 - 1:50am |
Wow.....I've had a rough day. I'm posted out in a rural village for my summer practicum right now. We got a call this morning from a hysterical lady saying that she had found her girlfriend collapsed on the floor, not breathing. It was too late, and the paramedics called it at the scene. She was 25 and the mother of 3. She was one of our patients who we sent home 2 days ago. I had only met her briefly the day she was first admitted.
After another nurse got the lady on the phone to calm down and call the ambulance, my preceptor turned to me and with disgust dripping from her voice said "A *woman* called about her girlfriend?!" I quietly explained that women can have girlfriends too. She flat out said that "no they can't....that's just wrong." Later it was ascertained that it had been the boyfriend who had found her and his mother was calling the hospital to which my preceptor, the nurse I'm supposed to emulate, sighed in relief saying "I didn't think we had any gays here."
I'm really upset. I hurt. I don't know what hurt worse, the loss of such a young life....only a few years older than me....or the uncompromising, unmasked intollerance of a whole group of people that I happen to be a part of....from someone who I though should be accepting everyone where they're at. Whoa.....I think I'm going to have to proces through this one, and I hope you all can help me wrap my head around it. Cause right now, I feel like jumping in my car, getting the hell outta here and jumping back into the closet.
P.S. no one here knows about my orientation....i keep personal and school life seperate

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((Big Hugs))
Sorry you have to deal with the ugly part of human's nature as you were dealing with a crisis. It's unfortunate the girl didn't live and the ungly part of human nature dies.
Stay strong. You're not alone even though it might seem that way. (((Celia)))
Celia,
I'm soooo sorry you had to experience that kind of prejudice. And what I'm sure made it harder was that you couldn't say anything. I'm glad you don't have to spend much more time with that nurse, and I would like to think that she is in the minority in the nursing field. Chin up, 'k? YOU are making a difference in every one of your
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