my heart is breaking
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| Tue, 05-22-2007 - 9:23pm |
I kept trying to start a post to tell you all about the woman I love. But everytime I started writing it, I stopped because I know no one can give me any answers. I know I'll never be with her. I know I need to find a way to get her out of my system. And now I have to live everyday with a husband I'm not sure I'm staying with and try and be a good mom. Sometimes it's all I can do to just put one foot in front of the other.
I even post to others telling them that they'll make it through, yet I'm a basket case right now. I keep telling myself if she'd just call me or give me a reassuring sign, I'd feel better. But I know that's not the answer and it sucks. She made me feel special and I fell for it and now I'm sitting here all alone typing to strangers. (no offense-you're really great strangers).
Thanks so much for listening. I need to fix dinner for my kids, but I just had to say I feel really crappy and trying to see the good in all this!

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Hi Roxy. what's your story? Care to share it with me?
Passion
((PG)),
I could not figure out how I missed these posts and then realized that it was while I was away. Sorry I missed this important thread. I know just what you mean about everything. This thread could have been me, my love is unrequited also. You seem to be a very strong person that has been in a lot of pain. It's okay. One way or another you will learn from this and move forward. I can understand how intense the pain is, it spills over from the emotional to the physical. The process is also agonizingly long. And long is such a relative thing depending on how intensely you feel. I am hoping for good things for you.
Keep us in the loop.
Major Hugs
Blue
Hey there. I am married but out to H (as of september). No kids. My H is my BF. He totally supports my coming out. I fell for **her** ugh. She is married too and has two kids. I am having to do NC (no contact ) until she figures things out...Maybe? NC is for some time in the fall, maybe October. He found out by accident she is gay and now he is being a doting h but wont support the fact that she IS a lesbian. Before that, it was the typical cold dead marriage. She is so torn. Okay that is the cliff notes version. My heart wont stop hurting.
Roxy
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