Guilt

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Registered: 05-09-2007
Guilt
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Wed, 05-23-2007 - 12:20am
I would like to know if any of you ladies have had problems with guilt for religious reasons? I come from a uptight family and lately I have been suffering with guilt about how I feel towards women. The thought of finally letting myself be with a woman made me feel as if a weight was lifted off of my shoulders, I felt happier than I have in a long time. I live with an uncle who is a christian and he feels like the rest of my family that it is against the bible. I love God but I am so attracted to women. I told myself I would give up my "dream" of being in a relationship with a woman and as soon as I did I felt so deeply depressed. I have felt depressed most of my life and I am wondering if I have been trying to supress my feelings for women all that time. I felt so happy and free at the thought of finally living my life the way I want. Does anybody have any insight that might help me? I feel with talking to you guys like I said before, I feel like I found my tribe. Thanks for listening, don't mean to whine. :)
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Registered: 05-09-2007
In reply to: jodycat1032
Sun, 05-27-2007 - 2:00am
Blue, I don't want to give the impression that I am ashamed of how I feel, I am really not. My conflict is one stictly on the basis of religious upbringing. I know what I want but can't seem to mesh the two together where they both make sense amd feel right. I guess I am in the beginning stages of a long process as I just recently accepted who I am inside my heart of hearts. Thanks to people like yourself and the others on this board I know I'll get there and laugh a lot along the way.
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Registered: 03-25-2007
In reply to: jodycat1032
Sun, 05-27-2007 - 7:55am

Oh, geez, Jody,
I didn't want you to think that I thought you were ashamed. I was only trying to say that the way people feel on the inside isn't always what they choose to express on the outside. I am sorry if I gave you any other idea. It's not easy to always "mesh" the two and bring all the pieces of a web together. I guess I didn't do that so well.

Have a great holiday

Hugs

Blue

BLUE DIA
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Registered: 09-29-2003
In reply to: jodycat1032
Mon, 05-28-2007 - 12:51am
Hey Wow! ~Great To See ya here ((((((nellnelle)))))))Been awhile for sure..
((((((((Hugs)))))))


 C  >^. A .

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Registered: 06-24-2003
In reply to: jodycat1032
Mon, 05-28-2007 - 8:06am
Hi nellenelle,
whare in tarnation have ye been? Nice to see you here.
Hugs,
Laurie
Laurie

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Registered: 06-24-2003
In reply to: jodycat1032
Mon, 05-28-2007 - 8:18am
((((( jody )))))
I hope you won't choose to give up and be alone the rest of your life.
I do hope you can get rid of some of this guilt and move on to what you want in life.
People talk against gays because they are ignorant, they do not understand it. Parents think it is a reflection on them if their child is gay, because they just do not understand.
Jody, I hope you can find some peace about this so you can live the life you were born to live. I believe we are born this way.
Hugs,
Laurie
Laurie

My web pages
http://homepage.mac.com/lauriedav/PhotoAlbum1.html http://hometown.aol.com/didoangst/myhomepage/photo.html
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Registered: 10-04-2004
In reply to: jodycat1032
Mon, 05-28-2007 - 8:18am

Hey ms kitty... *hugs*


I quietly resurfaced in the smiely thread... then had to respond to eastie's query.

Sometimes
Sometimes
I see much more than's good for me
The first thing that's on my mind
The last place I look each time


~
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Registered: 10-04-2004
In reply to: jodycat1032
Mon, 05-28-2007 - 8:19am

Hi laurie *hugs* back!


I've been out and about and look in every now and then. Mostly misbehaving...

Sometimes
Sometimes
I see much more than's good for me
The first thing that's on my mind
The last place I look each time


~
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Registered: 06-05-2007
In reply to: jodycat1032
Fri, 06-08-2007 - 1:04pm

"My Creator created me exactly as I am, " i love this sweet soul!

Exactly how I feel. So grateful for being made the way i was made.

Hugs

Roxy

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Registered: 11-22-2006
In reply to: jodycat1032
Fri, 06-15-2007 - 2:56pm

Here is a site that was helpful to me as I was coming to terms with my sexuality, especially after my mother wrote me a letter saying that I was condemning myself to eternity in a lake of fire.

Spring SiggyBlinkie
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Registered: 05-09-2007
In reply to: jodycat1032
Sun, 06-17-2007 - 1:44am
Thank you Stormy for the links to these websites. I did like the GCN link best. I think I may find some of the answers I have been looking for on there. I also wanted to tell you that I really liked the picture of the beautiful red head. That is what I wish I looked like.