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| Mon, 05-28-2007 - 9:39pm |
I just wanted to post this because I am soooo excited and happy this evening and I am not getting much support here at home. I feel like a little kid with a shiny new toy, and there isn't anybody to share it with, so I picked you guys. You have given me such good advice and comfort for the anxiety and bad stuff.
This afternoon I got a call that I was selected to work home plate for a district semi-final softball game tomorrow. I have polished up my shoes and belt, pressed my uniform, fixed my hat(that would be my "cover" to our military types lol), and gotten out my Underarmor.
I don't even want to work tomorrow, I just want to umpire. My name has gone into the pool of umpires for the state championship tournament now! It's kind of a big deal in my life.
Thanks for being here for me.
Blue

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I think giving it back is out of the question. You don't need the contact, questioning every nuance of what was said, etc.. I don't even want to consider what she might think of the gesture.
If you passed them out in the staff lounge, you'd see the stuff occasionally. Personally, that would hinder my healing. (I could easily picture myself having a whole day ruined upon sighting recognized articles.)
I say, don't think about it. Box up the stuff and put it somewhere hard to access. Leave it alone for months, even a year if necessary. Then you can decide what to do with the stuff. You might choose to drop the box, unopened at a charity shop. Or keep the rice steamer, donating the clothes and jewelry because they're more personal.
Trick is, get it out of your space soonish. Take control to regain your equilibrium. It's a positive, powerful step and I think you'll feel better for it.
*hugs*
Sister,
THAT is exactly what I decided to do last night, and a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I have put all the jewelry and clothes away in the closet(seemed appropriate). Today was a great day. Had the state semi-final game and had an indication that we may get the finals on Friday. You know that I wasn't expecting anything from this, so it is gravy.
I have let M go. Just as simple as that---at least for this week. Don't let me slip back. I can't stand the angst. I don't want to see her, etc. I need to set my sights elsewhere and just go with the flow. I am going to act just like you said. She has come and gone, and who are we talking about??? :)
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Blue
Your two cents are always worth about a million bucks, Caly. I have already put the stuff away. I'm on my own and doin' just fine, thank you. I have friends all around me who love me and friends here that do, too. I'm gonna be all right now. Just don't let me slip slide away, again.
Hugs
Blue
It's done. I put the stuff in the closet far away from me. I am going to view the rice maker as just and appliance, if I can. I think I am moving to a real good place here. Thank you so much.
Hugs
Blue
Didn't you know that part of the CL equipment we are issued along with our little yellow hat, is a life preserver?
You can do way better than that! I saw your pic and I am getting to know you and she is out of your league.
When you really need her she is not there and does not even seem or act like she cares!
To bad you can't just delete her, haha.
Hugs,
Laurie
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NO!!!!
I wasn't aware of that, having never even knew that places like this existed, before my brains became warped and twisted and I was looking for some relief.
Good to know. Now, why do you wear the little yellow hat? lol I mean, it's attractive and all, but do you wear it every time you post?
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Blue
Thanks, Laurie.
I'm trying to be a little better every day. You have really helped me here. This is such a great place for positive support, etc. Ice Princess hee hee hee. I don't know why I didn't see it sooner. I knew from the beginning she was tough, but icy is even better. You know, some times when your fingers get wet, you stick to the ice, but in the end, it's only cold and uninviting.
BTW, how's mom doing? You haven't said anything about her in awhile.
Hugs
Blue
Why green, aside from the fact that you obviously like posting in green? I think I would want one that has a little personal style. You might look great in one that looks like the ones in the movie Fargo. I KNOW you know the hats with the flaps on the side, coming from VT. Okay, maybe not. lol Or maybe one that sits jauntily off to the side. Better yet, a backwards baseball cap, in green, of course.
Do you wear the life preserver or carry them like in Babewatch?
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Blue
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