Good Things

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Mon, 05-28-2007 - 9:39pm

I just wanted to post this because I am soooo excited and happy this evening and I am not getting much support here at home. I feel like a little kid with a shiny new toy, and there isn't anybody to share it with, so I picked you guys. You have given me such good advice and comfort for the anxiety and bad stuff.
This afternoon I got a call that I was selected to work home plate for a district semi-final softball game tomorrow. I have polished up my shoes and belt, pressed my uniform, fixed my hat(that would be my "cover" to our military types lol), and gotten out my Underarmor.
I don't even want to work tomorrow, I just want to umpire. My name has gone into the pool of umpires for the state championship tournament now! It's kind of a big deal in my life.

Thanks for being here for me.

Blue

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Mon, 06-11-2007 - 9:25pm

My hair is getting so long right now that when I put on my ump hat, I have to gel the sides of my hair down. When I take the hat off, I have a terrible mullet!!!! Of course, I leave the hat on almost all the time. You talk about Terminal Hat Head, that is the way it looks after a game. Haircut next week, finally.

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Sue

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Mon, 06-11-2007 - 10:35pm

Well, Blue I'll tell you this: When the pain of holding on, gets greater than the pain of letting go...then you will let go.

Thanks,

Sebastian

 


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Sebastian


 


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Mon, 06-11-2007 - 11:01pm

Yes, brother, you are right. The pain of holding on was too great. The letting go is taking place. I think I'm doing all the right things.
I have just remembered the Christmas stuff. So special. Well, I'll cross that bridge when the time arrives. Who knows, I might not even be in this house at Christmas. The future is not ours to see...

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Blue

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Tue, 06-12-2007 - 7:34am

LOL the way my ears get cold, I could use one like they wore in Fargo.

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Tue, 06-12-2007 - 10:59am

Those are some of the wisest words I've ever read, Sebastian. Thanks for sharing.


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Tue, 06-12-2007 - 11:02am

I'm glad you decided to put the gifts away, Blue. I hope that will be a positive step in moving toward letting go. Don't worry - we won't let you slip!


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Tue, 06-12-2007 - 4:24pm

Thanks, TiNG,
It makes me feel a lot better.
We have a little women's group that meets in the morning periodically to celebrate our birthdays. This Thursday is mine 'cause I have a summer birthday. Well, M has signed up to bring juice. I can't believe she is coming. She hasn't come in 4 months and she didn't even come for her own. One of my close friends who has been seeing me through all this wanted to know if I was okay. Well, I wish she wouldn't come-these are my friends and she is just an interloper through me, but hear me, TiNG, I am DONE with her.

I just hate the end of the year at a school. The 8th graders are acting up because they are separating, and that is difficult for them. The teachers are at the edge. Today a relatively new friend told me that another teacher told her to stay away from me, because I am a back stabber. This person told her that is why M and I aren't friends, anymore. Well, the new friend knows all about my situation because I came out to her, so she was just sort of laughing at how much the other teacher didn't know. You know, I do everything I can for the teachers in my building. It just pisses me off and makes me sad when people think that I have ulterior motives or are not acting in their best interest. I do know that when you decide to lead, you need to follow Blue's LAW OF TENS. That is: ten percent of the people will follow everywhere and anywhere for whatever reason, 10 percent will never follow you, and that 80% percent in the middle?? You've go to make them believe.....'cause you believe.

Enough rambling for the little post you sent me. You can see that I am a bit charged today.

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Blue

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Wed, 06-13-2007 - 11:07am

I can't believe

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Wed, 06-13-2007 - 4:36pm

Well, I am sorry that you ever had to endure hurtful people and their assumptions. I know what you mean about the truce.
I see the little things right now. When the big thing happens, I feel in such a good place right now, and I hope forever, that they won't matter. Somebody else says that on the board all the time, and they are right!!!

Blue

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Thu, 06-14-2007 - 8:55pm

Well, TiNG, she never showed at my party. I think it is because I forwarded her an email from a person I met last weekend who had some knowledge of a bad thing that happened to M at her last job. This was one of the most horrific things that could happen to a teacher. She was fired for supporting Roe v. Wade (and I walked this walk ALL the way with M; emotionally, physically, spiritually, monetarily, judicially, everything). The new friend said that she had pulled her daughter out of the school after the way they treated M and a lot of other girls left, too(all girls school). She had a lot of parental support.
So this morning I get an email that says, " I told you never again email about personal things, business only. I ask that you respect my wishes." And she cc's my boss like I am some kind of stalker or harrasser. I have not uttered a peep to this woman since March 27th. I checked the old emails I saved.

Have I mentioned that I am DONE????? Okay, so why is this painful?

Also, no state championships, but it was an awesomely good run while it lasted. :)

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Blue

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