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| Mon, 05-28-2007 - 9:39pm |
I just wanted to post this because I am soooo excited and happy this evening and I am not getting much support here at home. I feel like a little kid with a shiny new toy, and there isn't anybody to share it with, so I picked you guys. You have given me such good advice and comfort for the anxiety and bad stuff.
This afternoon I got a call that I was selected to work home plate for a district semi-final softball game tomorrow. I have polished up my shoes and belt, pressed my uniform, fixed my hat(that would be my "cover" to our military types lol), and gotten out my Underarmor.
I don't even want to work tomorrow, I just want to umpire. My name has gone into the pool of umpires for the state championship tournament now! It's kind of a big deal in my life.
Thanks for being here for me.
Blue

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Well, that just BITES! I think I have a better name than Ice Princess for her, but TOS prevents me from saying it.
It's painful, hon, because of all that you invested in her and all that you did for her, and I'm sure at the time she did a lot for you too. She's trampling on that now. Only 5 more days, though, and you'll be outta there and away from her.
Sorry about the state championships, but you got out there and proved yourself! All your hard work was recognized. :-)
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First, Blue...I
Hey, Storm
First-thanks for the props for the pic. Y'all give me a big head here. Don't get many good compliments like I get here.
Second-the stuff. I hear you about the Goodwill. Here's the problem. I don't think I can just dump it all at once. This is like a baby step. The problem is that like the alcoholic that hides the bottle or the nicotine fiend that keeps the last pack in the glove compartment, I know right where the stuff is and I can get it out to "open the scab" anytime I want. THAT I know is a double edged sword. I don't want to be back in "woe is me mode."
Third-I am done, although I am still smarting from yesterday. As I search myself, I am trying to see if I was using it to re-open dialogue or whatever. It seemed that things were softening, because she was coming to lunch, we had brief comments to each other. I guess that is what I was thinking might happen. This seals the deal, however. Whenever you cc a boss (who is a dear friend to both of us), it makes me real nervous. I got just a really awful feeling when I saw the cc. What's done is done, Storm. I am really not to the point,though, that if she called and asked to see me, that I wouldn't go. That is where I need to be by the end of the summer. I'm workin' on it day by day. I am doing two steps forward and then I sometimes slip. I am really pissed off right now, though, and a little scared.
Thanks for the great advice. I will give some serious thought to getting rid of the stuff by the end of the summer. I will be gone most of the time, anyhow.
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Blue
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