Oh what a bad night last night was.....
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| Tue, 06-05-2007 - 10:38am |
Last night my STBXH was acting very strange. I was on the computer and he was hovering over me. I asked him if he needed something. He said,” Why do you have something to hide?” I couldn’t take it I blew up. I asked him, “Maybe you should look at yourself, when you ask that question.” He acted stupid about it and said he didn’t have anything to hide. So I proceeded to login to his myspace account. I said, “Not even this.” He told me that it was my fault that he was doing that stuff. He says I keep pushing him away. (How is it my fault that he can’t talk to me about his problems in our relationship, so instead of talking out issues he deflects and does stupid stuff behind my back)?
Let’s just say last night was a very long night. I am super tired today. I am only running on like 4 hours of sleep. Everything in the argument was my fault.
I put in my notice today at work. My last day working is the 22nd of June. My boss is very understanding and sad to see me go. She said she would be a reference for me in my future job hunt.
My husband basically told me to leave last night if that is what I wanted. I know though once I hit that door, it will be a totally different story. He will do the begging thing, please don’t go.. yada yada. I am so fed up with everything. So I am going on as planned. Going to TN this weekend. Then leaving on the 25th after he goes to work. I have my therapy appointment for this evening still scheduled.
I feel so emotionally drained. It isn’t even funny. I am tired and I know that that is not helping matters much.

Ooooooohhhhhh I am so fuming after reading this!!!
Oh, I'm so sorry to hear all that.
(((Momma)))),
You have GOT to be kidding. See, that's what people do when you catch 'em in the act. It becomes YOUR fault. It bounces over to you and then the real problem never gets discussed. You start having to defend yourself and can't get to the heart of the matter, because you have to keep backpeddling on things that have no merit in the discussion.
I can't wait for you to leave STBXH. You need space and time. TN should be a good thing. Maybe that Riverbend thing Storm was talking about would be a great diversion. DS will also be good for you.
Good job on the giving notice. I'm glad your boss is so understandng. One good point in your favor.
((((Hugs)))))
Blue
Everyone said it all.. I just want to add
Ahhh...Gatlinburg.
you know the truth and we know the truth.
This is a good reason for leaving him too!
You just do what you have to do and feel good about yourself.
You are doing the right thing.
Hugs,
Laurie
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