I am going to need a plan....

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Registered: 06-05-2007
I am going to need a plan....
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Wed, 06-06-2007 - 8:23am

I am going to have to come up with a plan. I am an action kind of girl and not one to get lost and not have a purpose. I need a plan. How to manage this weird place I am, doing NC (no contact) for an extended period of time. I have got to put the focus on me and my life. Work will save me. Growing a business.

I dont know how to feel about the NC. I know she needs time to work things out. But is she letting go of me? Is that what it means? Can you tell I hate "not knowing"? LOL! I guess my own personal life lesson of letting go. Letting go, letting God.

I am going to tackle some work and try and draft a plan. How to not just survive but thrive during summer. No matter what, i want to be a better person because of this.

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Registered: 11-16-2005
Wed, 06-06-2007 - 2:23pm

(((((((Roxy)))))))) I'm sorry this is so hard. I think you will come out of this a better, stronger person. It takes a heckuva lot of strength and courage to go through something like this. I'm not a very patient person either.


I think having a plan is a good idea...maybe write down some goals you want to accomplish this summer or a list of things you want to do (fun and/or work-related). Focus on your lists - but do give yourself time to grieve. If you like to read, maybe getting lost in some fun, light-hearted books would help. Staying busy always helps me get my mind off of painful things.


Hugs


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Registered: 06-05-2007
Wed, 06-06-2007 - 3:57pm

Thank you !! Yes, my summer is filled with growing my business (it will save me) and staying fit (keeps depression at bay) and maybe photography. But growing my brokerage will take 90% of my time. God I miss her. I ache all the time. I miss her.

I need to process some more. I need to sort things out. This is a good place to that. I need to figure out if i am letting go and waiting...that is the **HARD** part. I dont know how to feel. UGH!!! Double UGH!!! lol...