having a moment

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Registered: 06-05-2007
having a moment
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Fri, 06-15-2007 - 10:26pm

I think i am doing pretty good but i feel vulnerable. I guess that is normal. At times i feel like reaching out to community and them at moments I get overwhelmed. Aghhh I am having a moment. I actually feel shaky here.

I guess it is okay to admit I am scared. I am scared i wont heal from the loss of her. I am scared I wont want to trust again. I am scared i tend to attract...negative energy from women. I an trying not to think this. I want to stay positive. I posted about the break-up on another site another another name where the women are mean aggressive. It is a site for married women (lesbains). It helped to at first. Then people sniffed me out. Ihave gotten trolled there and flamed. It is hard to explain it. Anyway, I am tired, I am sad, I am really scared. I dont even know what to say i am afraid of. I think I am down. I am down. I just need support. I am hurting and i dont know exactly how to ask for something... I just hurt. And I want to trust women you know?

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Registered: 06-05-2007
In reply to: roxy_blue
Sun, 06-17-2007 - 8:50am

Aww PERFECT words Blue. Perfect. Thanks...

Roxy

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Registered: 06-05-2007
In reply to: roxy_blue
Sun, 06-17-2007 - 8:54am

Thanks (((cat))). Thank you so much. Yes, i really wnt to heal and not grow hard from this. I want to end up more compassionate and understanding. Let there be real purpose for the pain. And so i will.

BTW, Cat was her old handle...sigh.

(((Cat)))

Roxy

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Registered: 03-25-2007
In reply to: roxy_blue
Sun, 06-17-2007 - 7:08pm

Oh ((((Cat))), great words of wisdom and compassion. So sorry you have been hurt, but as you said, most of us can relate.

Major hugs to you.

Blue

BLUE DIA
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Registered: 11-16-2005
In reply to: roxy_blue
Mon, 06-18-2007 - 11:42am

((((((Roxy)))))))


I know this might sound strange, but I have a feeling you are going to come out on the other side of this even happier and stronger

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Registered: 06-05-2007
In reply to: roxy_blue
Mon, 06-18-2007 - 1:56pm

"We are so lucky to have you here! " Ting!!! This made me cry happy ones this time. Thank you!

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Roxy

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Registered: 11-16-2005
In reply to: roxy_blue
Mon, 06-18-2007 - 3:31pm

Awww...I'm glad the tears were happy ones.


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