I am missing her ...UGH
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I am missing her ...UGH
| Mon, 06-25-2007 - 10:26pm |
I wish i was not missing her...but i am. I wish she'd contact me even thought it is probably best she does not.. I thought maybe posting would help. I am trying to remember how she sounded on our last conversation so i dont do that stupid longing thing for someone who does not want me..ugh!
Well i am sleepy so that helps too, i can sleep away the sadness... nite
Roxy

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Absolutely, Roxy. I still have those twinges. I have moved into the "I hate you for doing this to me." mode. I vascillate. I only know it's getting better.
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Blue
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As I said, someone that important to you is not going to just disappear from your heart over night.
Wish I could wave a magic wand and take away the longing and sadness.
I know these things do take time. It seems that time is working for you though.
Just remember how she treated you and maybe you won't pine for her.
Hugs,
Laurie
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Such wise words...Caly. Thank you...had a really sad dream last night..ugh
roxy
"Just remember how she treated you and maybe you won't pine for her." Yes!! This is critical! Ugh!
Thanks
Roxy
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As the days continue to go by, those feelings will fade. Of course you're gonna have some hard times but they will become few and far between.
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"As the days continue to go by, those feelings will fade. Of course you're gonna have some hard times but they will become few and far between."
Thanks everyone, Laurie, ting, caly, Blue, others...i will try and remember. Time takes time.
Roxy
Ugh!!! Some days it just gets WORSE!! I dont understand What happened??? How does someone you really bonded to emotionally, spiritually, how does that all just go away. I dont understand? Five months of deep connection and then NOTHING???? How did i misread stuff. She said TRUST ME and I did. Like I have never EVER trusted another HUman being, BECAUSE there was this special conncetion, deep and spiritual...how does that so dissolve into notthingness, her sounding like I AM SOME STRANGER in the end???? It has really messed MESSED with my head...She knoew EVERY THING in my inner lanscape...how does all that just go away...
AAAHHHHHHH I am HURTING BIG TIME TODAY!!! Where did this COME FROM out of nowhere I am so in touch with BIG LOSS...HURTS so bad....sigh...!
Roxy
Oh, Roxy, hon....
I know so much of your pain. Wait till you start saying in your head "I hate you. I hate you for doing this to me." Then in the next breath, my head says "How could I hate you, I love you." Then there's tears and craziness. How could they just cut us off, when there was so much there..and I was never physical. The self talk of "I hate you" sounds really cruel and cold, but it has helped me somewhat. Hate just takes so much energy, so I'm not really good at it. I'm more good at fooling myself.
Crap, this is just the worst. You are right, it comes from nowhere and takes such an effort to shove it the he)) away. So much energy on somebody we thought really knew who we were.
I just know how tough this is. That feeling that you are nothing to them and not having any way to say just how you feel.
Now remember, babe, she has made things perfectly clear to you. I know you don't want things to be that clear. I know she had so many good qualities that drew you to her. I GET all of that. This just takes a boatload of time. I think we are in the same boat. It just comes and goes. It's a little better now and it will be better for you as time passes. Process at your own speed in your own time.
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Blue
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Deep breaths hun.
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