I emailed her!!!!!

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I emailed her!!!!!
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Sun, 07-01-2007 - 3:42pm

I cold not help myself any longer. I was so worried that she was worried about me. And I wanted her to be at peace. I just wanted her to feel okay and to be at peace. I did not expect a reply. In fact I told her none was required. NC nor friendship was sought. Just wanted to let her know in case she was worried. I just wanted to tell her I was not hurt and okay. …I felt so good doing it.

I made the email safe---made it look like advertisement on top with my special message at the bottom so her sense of safety was okay. I just could not let go of the idea of her hurting you know?

SOOOOO… she replied back! She replied back she was so glad to hear from me. And she had worried. She had thought about me…and I did not know it or imagine it.

Then we talked …for a long time and made amends. We got so much said and so much sorted out. She said everything I needed but did not know I needed to hear. I told her I care beyond romantic…it a higher form of love really. We are going to be friends and I am so happy over that.

All my initial trust was right…she was going to call me…even if I had not emailed her, she was going to reach out.

We are going to be friends…! God I missed my friend!!! But I have her back. My heart feel good again. I cried and cried out of happiness and relief. I am such a girl!

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Roxy

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Sun, 07-01-2007 - 4:39pm
Ohhhh roxy, I am soooo happy for you!! It is something you wanted even if you could not have the romantic part.
Will that be hard?
Anyway, good to hear the good news!
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Laurie
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Sun, 07-01-2007 - 5:46pm

Laurie!!!! No ,it wont be hard at all!!! I wanted it soooo badly. To be part of her life. She is one of the most postive people i know...so loosing her connection was painful. It is easy for me tobe supportive...plus been there (come out in a marriage)..i know how painful it can get.

My heart is so HAAAAAPPPY!!!

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Roxy

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Sun, 07-01-2007 - 6:27pm
Awwwww (((((roxy))))) I am happy for you! Keep us posted.
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Laurie
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Sun, 07-01-2007 - 8:53pm

Good for you, woman!! I am so happy for you. I hope you get everything you want out of this. Go with it!

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Blue

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Sun, 07-01-2007 - 8:58pm

I wanted to support her and be her friend. I just wanted to be part of her life. Turns out she did too. We are not choosing the romantic route...but it sure feel good to love her platonically.

Thanks blue!!!

My H is cautious though...he's worried i will get hurt. I did not feel like explaining it..not sure i can.

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Sun, 07-01-2007 - 9:57pm
I told her I care beyond romantic…it a higher form of love really..

That kind of love is not easy for everyone to attain....I had that kind for my first female Love(Mary) I accepted she and I were not going to be a forever thing and friendship as well as being there type thing for each other in situations was a

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Sun, 07-01-2007 - 10:06pm

Aww ((CAT)) i am sorry that did not work out...if i am reading it right..I get sleepy around 10 pm my time (lol).

Yes, i think because we had that time apart, it really showed me that i wasnted a connection, despite the nature of it. Could be she chooses to stay married. So complicated with littl kids and her H making tremendous efforts to change.

I just really miss my friend and just know that I can handle that...now if she hook up with a woman...i think my heart will get broken.

SO maybe it's platonic..with a twist...or in time...i would support her with a woman anyway. It will sort out.

I found out she really missed me and she thought about me...here i was thinking she was so GLAD to just be rid of me. Ugh...that was a painful place...for both of us.

Thanks for much for your support. I really had wondered if peopl were going to gently tell me i messed up...? I think becaue i am not romantically pursuing her ... i will be okay. I really want to take the HIGH road with her...she is that important to me,

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Roxy

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Mon, 07-02-2007 - 10:40am

((((((((Roxy)))))))))


I'm glad that you two finally made contact. I had suspected (as some others did too) that she really didn't want to hurt you, that she was hurting too, but she didn't know how to deal with the situation any other way.


I hope that you will be able to stay friends and have a successful platonic relationship. My one piece of unsolicited advice, however, is to keep a little bit of a guard up because if things get bad with her husband again and she starts to pull away, you'll know what's going on. I would hate to see you pulled down and hurt again, even if it were unintentional.


But, I'm sure this will all work out, and I'm glad you are happy again!


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Mon, 07-02-2007 - 11:23am

Thanks Ting...i love the advice. I can feel the caring. I am just happy to be part of her life. You were right...she cared deeply...was just having such a HARD time. Oh my goodness, a really hard, dark, lonely heartbreaking time...makes me so sad that she felt so utterly alone.

I know i can be open and naive about stuff...i am just happy to be her friend.

If i fall and break my heart again and lose her...i will be glad i tried.

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Rocy

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Registered: 11-16-2005
Mon, 07-02-2007 - 3:04pm

Awww, Roxy, I do care - we all do. I'm glad you've given each other a second chance to rekindle your friendship.


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