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how do you truly know?
| Mon, 07-09-2007 - 1:22am |
I have mostly slept with men in my life. I have only been with one woman several times over the past two years. It was a wonderful experience for me, having never been with a woman before. I hate labels but at first, I thought I might be bi-sexual. I am seriously beginning to question my sexuality and wonder if I am truly a lesbian. The thing is I never really had any "signs" that I was a lesbian when I was younger. I am 31 and feel like it is late in life for me to have this happen. I am just so confused and torn up inside. I ask myself this question over and over. Sometimes I come to the conclusion that I am a lesbian and other times I think I am second-guessing myself. In my experiences, I have tended to have a deeper connection with the one woman I have been with versus the men. I seem to be turned on by women but once in a while, I will find a guy attractive. Any advice???

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Champaign-Urbana? I grew up in Bloomington. Of course, the bigger, towns with universities and colleges have a different life all together. But I grew up in Bloomington, which is home to Illinois State and another private college. My experience was still pretty limited to different kinds of people
But, funny you mention Champaign. For the little time I spent in the company of other lesbians we went to a bar in Champaign called C-street. I wonder if it's still there. I could never really enjoy myself though, as I was always worried I'd be found out. I was only 18 or 19 then. Anyway, fun to "know" someone who knows the area.
Hopefully you can get out here. I told my therapist that while I love the midwest for many reasons, and it still feels like home in some ways, I always knew from a very young age I would get out of there. It feels very restricting. You are literally squeezed from every side. The first time I saw the ocean I was 10 and I told my mom I would live near it. It feels freer and expansive, like I have some space at least to one side.
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Hugs,
Passion
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