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| Thu, 07-26-2007 - 9:37pm |
Well, folks, I have been out of touch for awhile. That would be for a number of reasons. I have been at Leadership School at Gettysburg College for the teachers union. There isn't much computer access there. I have classes that I am supposed to attend, but that didn't happen every day ;), and there has been another person to "show me the way." She sort of took up some of my time.
So Monday night I go to the social to have a couple of drinks and dance awhile. I see S, who I knew from the RA and from the GLBT dinner(we danced together) We're drinking and one thing leads to another and we end up slow dancing. I hear you!! I AM NOT OUT REMEMBER!! Maybe not anymore, though. An awful lot of people saw us. Anyhow, yes to your question. I went home with her. My, my my.....what can I tell you. I know you all want details, so...
She's really tall for me and that just gives me more ground to cover. :) She has short, blond hair, and I would call her soft butch, but she wears lip gloss of all things and sometimes skirts. She tell me that they are Colombia, so they don't count. Yeah, right. Okay, okay, I couldn't help myself. She has awesome eyes. The eyes get me every time. She's pretty hot by anybody's standards. I cannot figure out what has come over me. On Tuesday I went to the auction and we sat together. She is secretly caressing my arm and my leg just driving me crazy. I spend Tuesday night until the wee hours of the morning, I cut classes on Wednesday afternoon. I did go to the region social, but never made it to the variety show. Went to the Wednesday late night Social. S and I are walking back to her room from the Social around 1am and she is holding hands with me. I just let her. In fact, I hold back. I have always wanted to do that. It was cool. We have already been holding hands, but not with so many people around. One of the gay guys passes by us and talks to us. We have a conversation and then I do this stupid, butch thing and ask if he wants me to walk him home. Like he needs it. It sounded gallant and all that, and he was terribly drunk. He laughs and shouts out loud that "we will both be safe, though." S's roommate came home and now we are walking around the campus looking for a place to.....so we end up in my car/truck. It was like we were freakin' 16 yr olds parking. I thought is was kind of risky and that always adds to the sensation. Lights from the parking lot, but not many people at 2 am. There were a few though, and we would lay real still until they passed by. S complained about rug burns this morning. Hee Hee I cut class again this morning.
Let me just be real up front here. I am a "straight" arrow. I always got up went to breakfast, classes, early evening activity, danced for awhile and was ALWAYS in by 11pm. I think I have been lead astray by a bad influence, but it was oh, so, good.
This was round seven. Round eight begins fomorrow morning. I am sitting here watching season 3 of the L Word and trying to gather my strength and find my reserve stamina. I am leaving for CO to visit my dd and her boyfriend. I have decided not to tell her, and will leave it up to a joint decision between dh and I as to where to go with this. I have looked up the name of a gay bar in the Boulder area and will go if I get the chance.
I forgot to mention during all this that I had to go to the hospital on Tuesday because the bottom of my right calf was really painful and swelled up. My ankle, too. They can't figure out what it is, so they call it Arthralgia. Who knew. The gave me an ankle brace, and it does make my leg feel good.
Any questions!!!!!????
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The for real, no questions remain, FgpBlue
Hey, S, I hope I got the timeline right!!! Feel free to correct it. Should I tell them more.....cause there's lots more I could share ;)

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I am floored with how fast things are happening. Do you think I should not tell dh next month?
Yes, I knew that S reads the posts.
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Blue
Yes, I will probably see her again. Our paths could cross often.
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Blue
Brother, thank you for your suggestions. They are certainly valid and good advice. I know you care about me. This board is all like my mom, dad, sisters, and brother all rolled into one. I know I need somebody to say slow down and watch the road signs. I really appreciate that. I also know that come next month, the bottom is going to drop out and the month after that work will begin again. I guess I have been running as fast as I can before I must stop, or at least I think it might stop.
I just always think the best about people, SB, and I have been burned before. I guess this is a place where I really don't want to catch on fire.
Thanks, bud
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Blue
Okay, Laurie, that is just scary stuff. How exactly would I recognize these types of women. I haven't dated in decades and I have never dated women. Seems a random crap shoot to me. You don't know what is in the package until after you open it up and realize that you don't want it, but already own it.
I will be careful from now on. although I have felt extremely comfortable with both women.
Thanks for watching out for me.
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Blue
You are the best! Thanks mom, I will be careful.
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Blue
Shannon, good advice. Maybe a little late, but somebody here said that it was never too late for the future. I wlll take your advice under huge consideration.
I am trying to keep a good head on my shoulders, but sometimes it's all I can do to focus on what should or should not be happening. Affairs of the heart and body are no easily dismissed!
Thanks for caring about me. This board makes me feel so good.
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Blue
Thanks, Rox, but the summer is almost over and the bad things loom ahead. I am just going to have fun here in CO with my dd and try not to think about the future.
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Blue
*Slow gentle hug
I can understand how you're feeling about running as fas as you can, but I would rather you take your time and just meet other women, so that you know where these hot mama's are you can find them, get to know them, then you can have all the fun that you want.
You have more life experience than I do, but somethings we need our friends to pull us up on. When "The bottom falls out" It would be better if you didn't have chaos in your social life as well. You know that you are always safe here to be yourself, but irl, unfortuantely, there are limitations. I know that you always think about the good side of people, and that's an admirable trait, we're not going to hurt you. Sometimes, it's ok to window shop and touch the product, but just to take it out of it's package and enjoy it, it just may be something that didn't want, and can't get rid of.
Yes, I know, I answered many a thread answering question saying that if I found a woman attractive how long it would take to sleep with her, and I know I shared a story about a woman that I did meet, with you. Personally, I didn't have anything to lose, at the time.
What I'm trying to say, blue, is that when you got burned before, you should remember how painful it was.
I'm always here for you, blue, just like the other ladies.
Hugs,
Sebastian
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Sebastian
http://www.facebook.com/sebastianbruce
Just be careful but have fun. Sow those wild oats and let things play out. Come to the board if you run into any nut jobs.
Hopefully you won't.
Like Shannon said, you are a stud. Just date around but be careful.
You have to date, I believe, before you can settle down with one person.
Watch out for women who get to jealous to soon! Like after one or two dates.
That is one good sign.
Have fun! Keep us posted and remember... details! Lol.
Hugs,
Laurie
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Laurie...that is so scary!! I had two scary experiences with crazy women and it got me back in the closet for years...scary when you can tell. Yikes!!
Roxy
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