It's Done
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| Fri, 08-10-2007 - 5:17pm |
Got up this morning, ate breakfast, worked out, took a shower, and loaded the car with the suitcase and backpack from my two weeks in Boulder, just in case. Also took two Xanax.
Sat down and had lunch with my DH,
It's DONE.
There was this awful silence. There were tears. I'm his best friend. I can't imagine how he treats his enemies. Then I was all worried about the emotions, living conditions, the kids, how great a guy he is and how he needs somebody to really love him the way he needs to be loved. I'm about the fact that I will be going out to meet people and can he handle that?
He's all about the investments, the houses, the money, the divorce, getting a lawyer. How differently we think.
After about an hour, I went to get my exercise ball filled at work and sit at Barnes and Noble and read Out Magazine for a change in public. As I am picking up the magazine, over walks dd's first grade teacher. I quickly picked up Newsweek instead. lol
Well, I'm pretty numb. I expect there will be other emotions as the weeks move on. I am leaving tomorrow to stay with a friend for Saturday night. Can't imagine what he thinks. Kind of scary, but no violence, no threats.
Thanks for you all for being here. I will need you in the next few months, maybe years.
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Blue

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Well, let's just walk this fork in the path together. It is the less traveled and I'm sure it will make all the difference. :)
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FgpSue
Thanks, SB, it's all pretty surreal right now. I appreciate you standing with me.
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FgpSue
One of my favorites!
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth.
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same.
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
You're the best TiNG. I know that you and Caly are walking the walk. I know you have come back down the path to find me and bring me along. I will have lots of questions.
I called my one brother J and his wife M and they are fine. I asked them not to tell their children until I told mine. I think they will respect my wishes. This is the couple that I thought knew when I visited Charleston. It was pretty easy and I knew that my family would not be a problem.
It's like my mind is all cloudy right now and my body is all tingly(no pun). I am sleeping in the spare bedroom this evening and have another place to go tomorrow. I NEVER dreamed my life would come to this point.
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Sue
Shannon,
It is, and always has been, my favorite. Another one is:
Bull fighter critics sit row on row
Crowd the enormous plaza full,
But there's only one who really knows
And that's the one who fights the bull.
Hugs
Sue
Another Frost favorite.......
Acceptance
When the spent sun throws up its rays on cloud
And goes down burning into the gulf below,
No voice in nature is heard to cry aloud
At what has happened. Birds, at least must know
It is the change to darkness in the sky.
Murmuring something quiet in her breast,
One bird begins to close a faded eye;
Or overtaken too far from his nest,
Hurrying low above the grove, some waif
Swoops just in time to his remembered tree.
At most he thinks or twitters softly, 'Safe!
Now let the night be dark for all of me.
Let the night be too dark for me to see
Into the future. Let what will be, be.
Hugs,
Shannon
You are very brave, and I hope your decision to come out to your family will bring you peace and happiness. I cannot even imagine the courage it took to sit down and tell your husband. Tough times may be ahead, but you will encounter each step on its own, and make it through to the good part.
Good luck, hugs and blessings to you. :O)
Thanks, babe. I appreciate your words and your feelings.
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FgpSue
I am not sure what to say...
At least the kids are grown now. The rest should work itself out.
I will always be here for you. I have been thinking of you and hoping things were going as good as could be expected. I know it will be hard for awhile. I hope dh has friends/family support to go to as well.
You have friends and us and we are your friends too. Just wish we could really be there for you in person.
Know that we are here. I am thinking of you.
You just got through one of the hardest parts of this thing. Be strong.
Hugs,
Laurie
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