I Live A Reality Show

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Registered: 03-25-2007
I Live A Reality Show
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Mon, 08-20-2007 - 7:05pm

The big day, as you know was, Friday a week ago and the weekend was just horrific and yet it was great. A weight has been lifted from me. I was so worried about my ds. He is speaking to me and cares a great deal. He is out in CO with dd and I am sure they are doing what they need to do to come to grips with a lesbian mom and the changing of the family as they know it.

Since then, the whole family knows, my dh outed me to his entire worksstaff AND all of our couple friends that were originally his friends. My family is good, his is not, but they are not that bad either. My mother in law told everybody that "she has known for years." She's always like that and always will be, so I just let those things tug at me for the moment and then move on.

I have come out to all of my bosses and the last one is kind of where I am with her own husband, without the lesbian thing, I think. We have lots in common. She is about my age and is experiencing similar things like she loves her husband, but is not IN love with him. She asked me what I told my husband and we spent an hour in her office BSing.

My dh came home today and told me he had taken wire cutters and removed his wedding band, his mom wants my wedding band back and she is entitled to it, but it feels bad, and he is talking about getting an apartment as soon as we sell the Florida home, possibly in about 4 months. I would, of course, be responsible for "not my damn dog" until my ds can take him. I would need help for this.

This is really hard as many of you have said. There is not much community here, but I have made some pretty good contacts and will keep going. It's going a little faster than I had anticipated. Dh is the driving force. I guess in my head I thought this would all play itself completely out after I had retired, but it looks like other forces will be intervening.

Goddess love all my friends who have been checking up on me, some of you here at the board, either by phone, email, or postings. I am sad right now, but I think that is to be expected as you move through these kinds of events.

Many hugs all around

Blue Sue

BLUE DIA
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Registered: 05-20-2007
Tue, 08-21-2007 - 3:30pm

You go girl. The hardest things are actually the best things in life.

You know-when I was at the gym today and listening to V talk about her family, and then we were chatting with a supervisor at the gym who just came back from maternity leave and was showing off pictures of her baby and family, I realised that V could never give that up-she just doesn't have it in her. And I'm okay with that. We're all different-and if it destroyed her to give it up to be with me-then what's the damn point. I just enjoy having her in my life, even the craziness of it-and thank Goddess she was put in my path-and she smells so good to boot.

But it is so hard to sit quietly with yourself and realise you will have to give up so much to be true. Remember-in the word sacrifice is the word "sacred" and we will be gaining so much in the end friend.

I plan another thread with some great inspiration quotes that I read a lot to get me through.

Hugs,

Amy

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Tue, 08-21-2007 - 3:42pm

So, you wanna, maybe, get a couple beers on Saturday night? I'll buy. lol

hugs

Sue

BLUE DIA
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Tue, 08-21-2007 - 3:45pm

((((SUE)))

A little late. Sending heartfelt hugs your way.
Think of it this way. You're just walking through tall grass forgotten to mow for two weeks. You are strong and walking through them as you figure out how to tackle mowing it down. You're aware of the terrain and deciding on going crisscross or up and down while waking up to the wild flowers surrounding the grass area.

I know, I know (what the heck is she talking about, you're thinking *L*)

(((BIG HUGS)) again and congratulation! *SMILE*

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Tue, 08-21-2007 - 3:47pm

Thanks for the props on the strength, but it ain't always what it's cracked up to be.

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It helps. *smile*

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Tue, 08-21-2007 - 3:49pm

I just bought two beer mugs for my apt. What do you drink?

Louise

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Tue, 08-21-2007 - 3:50pm
How about having a thread like a soap opera?
each one pick up as the last one finish posting a message?
what story we can tell and share with each other. *L*
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Tue, 08-21-2007 - 3:52pm
Hello Mountain Lover.
Welcome to the board.
Sorry I didn't greet you sooner. *Smile*
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Tue, 08-21-2007 - 6:46pm

Interesting metaphor there, Rogue. I do feel your hugs

Thanks, babe

Sue

BLUE DIA
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Tue, 08-21-2007 - 6:48pm

Whatever you are serving. Maybe something local. They're always interesting. I do like wheat beers, but it really doesn't matter.

Thelma

BLUE DIA
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Tue, 08-21-2007 - 7:13pm

I'm jealous...I don't get FIOS or LOGO.

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