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talking about it w/out talking directly
| Sun, 08-26-2007 - 10:15pm |
Ummm. I need to talk about K. But it may not be smart. I am feeling a little shutdown and restless (weird combination of feelings). She is working on her stuff. NC for a while.
I feel so....odd. I am okay about the NC. But my feelings of detachment (healthy) make me feel so odd at the same time. Part of me feel numb and i hate that feeling. It makes me feel uncomfortable. I cant put my finger on it.
I dont know. I just wanted to put it out there and not feel so isolated about it.
Cant go into details... Anyway feels good just to reach out.
Hugs to all.
Roxy

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I wonder if the numbness could be a subconscious way of protecting yourself against the hurt, keeping you from not going to that awful place you were with her when you previously had NC. I am by no means a psychologist, but that thought came to mind.
Hang in there. Hugs!
Oh, Roxy, sorry about the way you are feeling. Seems like you are doing a lot with K and your feelings. I wonder how long you will keep going like this without some sense of drawing to a conclusion. You have said before that you would wait forever, but it seems to be taking it's toll on you.
Huge bear hugs
Blue
Thanks blue...i am better than i sound. I think i just had a challenging time with family so it adds stress to me. Hugs
Roxy
(((ROXY}}}
So sorry about your feelings of detachment & "flatness".
Thanks Storm...! I am so intouch with feelings...so feeling flat feels really weird. I know it will pass.
Hugs
Roxy
ahhhhhhhh gottcha..
Hi Roxy. I have, and continue to go through those feelings sometimes. I hate it, because I will have many moments when I feel really good, and I don't want it to go away. But even when I'm my lowest, crying harder than I've ever cried, I prefer that to feeling flat. Because even crying and pain is FEELING-where the flatness makes you wonder if you've just shut down.
It's hard to care for someone so much and just not know where it's going-what do you with those intense feelings then? Hang in there and feel all our hugs
Amy
((((((Roxy)))))) I hope things are better soon!
Hugs,
ML
ML
Thanks Amy....((Amy)) I think we are going to have a good ending. She is doing amazing work....which is why i hate feeling so flat. I should feel something...but i just feel flat. Maybe i feel work and life stress so that is clouding my emotions...maybe I am just scared?
Does that make sense?
Roxy
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