talking about it w/out talking directly

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talking about it w/out talking directly
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Sun, 08-26-2007 - 10:15pm

Ummm. I need to talk about K. But it may not be smart. I am feeling a little shutdown and restless (weird combination of feelings). She is working on her stuff. NC for a while.

I feel so....odd. I am okay about the NC. But my feelings of detachment (healthy) make me feel so odd at the same time. Part of me feel numb and i hate that feeling. It makes me feel uncomfortable. I cant put my finger on it.

I dont know. I just wanted to put it out there and not feel so isolated about it.

Cant go into details... Anyway feels good just to reach out.

Hugs to all.

Roxy

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Mon, 08-27-2007 - 2:19pm

I wonder if the numbness could be a subconscious way of protecting yourself against the hurt, keeping you from not going to that awful place you were with her when you previously had NC. I am by no means a psychologist, but that thought came to mind.


Hang in there. Hugs!


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Mon, 08-27-2007 - 5:32pm

Oh, Roxy, sorry about the way you are feeling. Seems like you are doing a lot with K and your feelings. I wonder how long you will keep going like this without some sense of drawing to a conclusion. You have said before that you would wait forever, but it seems to be taking it's toll on you.

Huge bear hugs

Blue

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Mon, 08-27-2007 - 5:56pm

Thanks blue...i am better than i sound. I think i just had a challenging time with family so it adds stress to me. Hugs

Roxy

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Mon, 08-27-2007 - 6:51pm

(((ROXY}}}


So sorry about your feelings of detachment & "flatness".

Spring SiggyBlinkie
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Mon, 08-27-2007 - 6:59pm

Thanks Storm...! I am so intouch with feelings...so feeling flat feels really weird. I know it will pass.

Hugs

Roxy

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Mon, 08-27-2007 - 7:42pm

ahhhhhhhh gottcha..


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Mon, 08-27-2007 - 7:56pm
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Mon, 08-27-2007 - 11:02pm

Hi Roxy. I have, and continue to go through those feelings sometimes. I hate it, because I will have many moments when I feel really good, and I don't want it to go away. But even when I'm my lowest, crying harder than I've ever cried, I prefer that to feeling flat. Because even crying and pain is FEELING-where the flatness makes you wonder if you've just shut down.

It's hard to care for someone so much and just not know where it's going-what do you with those intense feelings then? Hang in there and feel all our hugs

Amy

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Mon, 08-27-2007 - 11:23pm

((((((Roxy)))))) I hope things are better soon!

Hugs,
ML


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Tue, 08-28-2007 - 9:11am

Thanks Amy....((Amy)) I think we are going to have a good ending. She is doing amazing work....which is why i hate feeling so flat. I should feel something...but i just feel flat. Maybe i feel work and life stress so that is clouding my emotions...maybe I am just scared?

Does that make sense?

Roxy

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