The update.............
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| Tue, 09-18-2007 - 9:06pm |
It's been a few weeks since I whined and moaned about Shelley.......lol. I actually have no whining or moaning at the moment. I have to give her some credit, she's trying. Anytime that I am home we eat our meals together. We spend more time together, and we've talked more in the last 2 weeks than we had in a long time. The other night I was painting my toes and she came in, grabbed my foot and kissed it! I thought I was in the wrong house! She's been very supportive about school, cheering me on. Over the weekend she told me that she wants us to have a commitment ceremony for our 5 year dating anniversary........June 20, 2009.
There is still a part of me that I am holding back, I can't help it. We've had these issues for too long for it to all be better overnight. The 2nd anniversary of our domestic partnership is this month.
Anyway, that's the update.........mostly good.
Shannon


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"There is still a part of me that I am holding back, I can't help it"...seems completely natural to me.
Glad things are good for now!
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Roxy
Thanks, me too. It feels more comfortable in the house.........I don't feel as tense.
Shannon
We'll see........I'm not even sure why we aren't arguing. Is it because things are changing or because I'm not home as much and don't have the energy to put up much of an argument with anyone?
This has more to do with me than with her. If we don't make it I have to know I tried so that I can move on. I don't want to drag any of this into another relationship. I want to be able to move on with a clean slate so that I can be good for someone else if that is what is going to happen. Because right now with all the stuff we've been through I could never be good for another woman until I work though it.
Shannon
She didn't really understand what I meant, sort of pushed me to commit to a relationship with her and went through a process of discovering what I was trying to say.
"I don't want to drag any of this into another relationship. I want to be able to move on with a clean slate so that I can be good for someone else if that is what is going to happen. Because right now with all the stuff we've been through I could never be good for another woman until I work though it. "
That seems so emotionally intelligent. Good for you for wanting this and being so clear about it.
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Roxy
I'm glad Shelley has been more loving. I hope the changes will be long-term and that she is realizing what you need in order to be happy with her.
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Hi Shannon. I'm glad to hear she's making an effort.
This morning while I was dressing she told me I look cute! Me? I look cute? My wife just said I look cute? That was pretty much my reaction. It's been a long time since she said something like that to me. The last time she complimented me that way was probably our anniversary 3 months ago. It's not something she does much anymore. She used to alot, she always told me how sexy, beautiful, etc I am.
Anyway, it made me feel pretty good. I'm still smiling.
Shannon
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