i have made a difficult decision...
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i have made a difficult decision...
| Fri, 03-03-2000 - 8:12pm |
i have made a difficult decision...
I would like to let you all know that I will no longer be posting my poetry on this board. It is nothing against you ladies, but I feel that as a young high school student, my work is not entirely understood due to being a non-conformist. I believe that not all writing needs to make sense, this is why my favorite poet is Richard Brautigan. I will definately still be hanging around here to read other's poetry and maybe when my writing develops to a more "mature" style I will begin to post again. So I bid you all a temporary farewell and encourage each and every one of you to keep writing.
Respectfully, Alaina *Faded*
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I just want you to know...
That I respect your decision, although I don't think you need to go. You are not the only young person here. I don't know that I would call myself a general "non-conformist" -- I'm just whoever it is that I am (I'm never quite sure, lol, it seems to change a lot!). But I do write a lot of unconventional poetry...and I understand how you feel. I am in high school, too, and tend to write things that people don't quite understand. I know I tend to be bad at responding to other people's work, because I generally do not have a lot of time when I am on, but I would be happy to do what I can to make you feel at home. I have not looked at a large volume of your work, but I would be willing to, to see if I understand, and then make and effort to understand what I don't. I am generally very good at understanding people who think they are not being understood by other's. The truth is, as far as "maturing" as a poet is concerned...well, posting really helps a lot. I have learned a lot about my personal writing, and writing in general through posting. I don't necessarily agree with everything I find out, but it's still good to find out as much as one can. And, really, poetry is not something you exactly mature about. You learn to express more truthfully what you intend to, maybe. Specific textbook techniques could be better mastered, I suppose, but the content of a poem -- the most important part -- is just what you feel. And what a person feels is never immature; emotions, by nature, are not immature. How people handle them can be...but that is an entirely different thing altogether...
Anyway, as I said, I respect your decision, though. I am sorry if things just didn't work out. It's just a pity to see someone feel misunderstood, and walk away because of it.
Kristie.
thank you, but...
normally when I am misunderstood (which happens alot to me, why i do not know) I never EVER walk away from it. However, this is a little bit different. I think I should have worded myself more properly in the other post. Maybe I am not posting my work because I feel it's not ready for the world and the world is not ready for me. Maybe I feel more comfortable expressing myself through my music instead of my poetry. To be 100 percent genuinely honest, I do not understand myself or my decision to leave. It is merely what I felt was best inside my heart so I am following that. Also, things are busy around here right now with other things going on and I feel as though I am not putting my all into my works which I know is important. I will be back, I assure you of that :-) Thank you very much for your concern about my leaving, I really appreciate it.
Respectfully, Alaina *Faded*
If you ever want ...
I would be more than happy to read your poems, if you ever want someone to bounce them off of. You sound an awful lot like me when I was in high school, which wasn't that long ago. I still feel misunderstood, but have learned to accept that I'm a bit different than others. In high school, I was an editor for the literary magazine, and was also very much into music. It all kept me very busy !! It was also my escape from everything else in my life. Anyway, just wanted you to know that if you ever want someone to "listen", I'd certainly be willing. Like movie star said, we can learn a lot from each other. We may not always agree with what others say, but it's a different perspective that others can give. But I also understand how personal writing can be, how opening yourself up to others that way can be a little scary, for you never know what others will think. So if you ever want someone who may be a bit understanding, just now the offer is there. Sorry to see you go. Heather honey6599@ivillage.com
Thank you, and if I ever come up with a complete thought again, I will post...n/t
Alaina, i too am sorry at your decision, because if you want to write poetry
you could learn alot here. Please don't think yourself as less than anyone else here. We are all learning. I am 49, and love to learn. Hope to see you still. 2crft4fr@ivillage.com
I'll miss you and your poems fadded, good luck and please do lurk! n/t
The adolescent in me...........
Alaina,
As an educator I want to say the more you share of your writing the more you become the writer. As a 52 yo woman, who is in love for the first time I want to say that I am misunderstood many times, still. And the adolescent in me is still learning about who I am even amongst the confusion of so many ways to express my true self, feelings, & beliefs.
I have always doubted myself. I said I couldn't write poetry and was afraid to share. And when I say I can't, I can't. When I am afraid to risk, I remain incomplete. What I am trying to say, faded, is it is never too late, return when you are ready. I will miss your insight into your world which sometimes allows me to see my own.
With understanding, I leave you........... Wendy
I understand! n/t