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|Wed, 04-02-2003 - 8:14am|
I think these sisters need to be far apart from eachother! She told us she wants us to stay in the place we are now till September and then each go our own way. I do feel slightly better, but still upset. And there is still tension between all of us. I don't feel like she should be decided in March that we all have to live together till September (we don't have a lease, it's month to month)
Mostly because I have wanted to move for a while, because this place is way too cold in the winter, too hot in the summer (etc) So I want to move out for May or June. Although I am terrified to do this for so many reasons, financial ( the program I work for is non-profit goverment funded so there is always talks of budget cuts etc), scared I'll just be so alone etc. But there is a little part of me that is excited, my own place, my own decorating etc!!! (and stupidly that even makes me anxious)
I'm trying to live by "everything happens for a reason", and just think day to day, if I think in the the future I getting very anxious. Then it seems huge.
And I'm trying to think about the "safe place" stuff, and trying to think it's not to good to get too stuck to the same soft spots.
Sorry this is so long! Thanks again -- have a good day