anxiety in pregnancy

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Registered: 07-12-2004
anxiety in pregnancy
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Thu, 01-20-2005 - 5:54pm

I posted this on the pregnancy and depression board, but it seems to be pretty much dead, so i'm going to try on a board where there are more people, I hope.

I've been going absolutely nuts lately, and I just need to vent a little. I am 17 weeks pregnant and just moved to a different city. I have family here, and they try to be supportive when they can, but they are all very busy with their own lives. My bf is working crazy hours, and I haven't even spoken to him since Saturday. I already have a 2 year old, so it's like i'm a single mom, but i still have to pick up after a slob boyfriend.

On top of this, I don't have any friends yet in this city, and as hard as I try to go out to play groups to meet people, I haven't been able to get on the bus because of panic attacks. I just don't know what to do with myself anymore, because there is absolutely nothing within walking distance of my house, and my bf can't drive me anywhere because of his work schedule.

It seems like I never stop crying, and i feel like the worst mom in the world because my daughter is always asking if i'm ok. She's only 2, she shouldn't have to be too concerned about her mother's stability yet. I've tried to see a psychiatrist, but it's a small town, and the waiting list is about a year long. On top of everything else, i am extremely paranoid about drugs and have gone off my meds in this pregnancy, because i'm scared, despite what statistics say about how safe they can be, that they will hurt the baby. Most medicines have only been tested in childre, not on the possible affects that use during pregnancy could have on their mental health as adults. Is that completely insane?

I'm also home alone at night, and everytime i hear a noise I jump and have to investigate before I can go back to sleep, which is taking it's toll on me too. I just with i could convince myself that noone is going to break in, but it's also always been an extreme fear of mine, keeping me up at night since I was just a small child.

Has anyone been through anything similar to this before or have any advice?

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Registered: 03-11-2004
Tue, 01-25-2005 - 12:26pm
Sounds like a very good plan that you have reasoned out. Keep in touch! We want to see you feeling better & having a healthy baby. (((hugs))) jan
 

 


 



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