Perhaps I spoke too soon

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Registered: 12-25-2004
Perhaps I spoke too soon
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Fri, 03-11-2005 - 1:07am

GRRR!!! I'm so frustrated! I've been doing so well, and now bam! Today has been hell! I know that there have been some serious triggers today, but it's still frustrating. I started counseling again today with a new counselor, so of course I had to go through my history with him. You all know the drill. Well, it just set me off. It was like thinking about how bad it used to be and how easy it was to get to that point made me start obsessing about whether that's where I was headed again or not. So not productive. I think I have been afraid of just about every possible thing at this point. And apparently the latest is this overwhelming fear that I will have another nervous breakdown. I know that I am no where near that! I know this. But right now I just feel so on edge. I almost had myself worked into a full on panic attack a little earlier. Now, 1 clean kitchen later, I'm more calm, but still feel that "vulnerable" feeling. Any prayers you all can spare for me I'd greatly appreciate. Thanks for letting me vent.

Jess

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Registered: 03-11-2004
Fri, 03-11-2005 - 8:09am
Revealing & reviewing your life to anyone, can trigger anxiety. Vent anytime. That's why we're here, Jess. Hope today is better. Just think, your house is clean & you're home free for the weekend. (((hugs))) jan



 

 


 



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Registered: 10-02-2004
Mon, 03-14-2005 - 7:51am

Hi Jess. I know exactly how you feel. I have been doing really well lately and then BAM it hits. I will read something or talk to someone about my issues and then my mind starts going wild and before I know it, I am a mess. The intrusive thoughts and worries come back full force, or at least enough to get me bothered again. Try to focus your mind on something else that will not expose you to things that bother you. I exercise every day no matter how bad I might feel and that really helps me. When I go to therapy sometimes I think it does more harm than good, but overall I think it helps. Sometimes I guess we just have to face it head on and overcome it. I know, easier said than done.

Kim