Thanks.... and some mind purging
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| Sun, 03-20-2005 - 12:33pm |
First off I want to say thanks to the ladies in chat on Thursday night. It was great and I'll definately be back. Even if I do have to be the baby.
But now it's Sunday, and I have no chat to go to, so I figure I can do a brain purge here. There may be a wee bit too much information for some of you, so be warned... female health issues to be discusses momentarily.
So, the most irritating and frustrating part of my anxiety these days is the obsessive thoughts. It's like no matter how ridiculous a thought is, as soon as it passes through my head I can't let it go until I reasoned it out, rationalized it away, or looked it up online to see if it's even possible.
I've been having some female health issues lately. Well, for about 5 months really. And now I'm on the 3 going on 4 week period that is heavier than I would like it to be. My new obsession seems to be that I'm going to bleed to death. I know this isn't going to happen. I've been examined and there's nothing physically wrong with me. My body is just taking its sweet time to adjusting to going off a medication back in Nov. I know this. So my nurse just told me to monitor the period for now. And if I start will signs of shock, i.e. light headedness, low blood pressure, weak knees, etc. I should come in. Well, I had none of that. Until I got the flu. I'm guessing it's the flu. It started out as a bad sore throat, and now my sinuses and ears are all plugged up, resulting in a feeling of light headedness. I'm achey all over which feel remarkably like muscle weakness. So now I'm in the pattern of talking myself out of panicking about my period, becuase I only have a cold or the flu or whatever.
I'm so frustrated! And I'm so tired of feeling like crap. The anxiety started back this time about a week after my husband left on business. He's been gone 19 days. He'll be home in six more days. I really just want someone here to take care of me. LOL I know, I'm gettign winey! I DON"T FEEL GOOD!! And with the anxiety on top of it, plus the period, I just feel like *ss all the way around. So, if you have any postive thoughts or prayers you could send my way, I'd really appreciate it.
Just wanted to add, that thankfully the anxiety isn't horrible right now, just irritating. You know? That just kinda edgy feeling...

Sending P&PT's your way, Jess. I had the flu a few weeks ago. That awful sinus congestion & headache were unbearable. In my mind, I was convinced it was a stroke coming on or a brain tumor. I can laugh about it now, but it was NOT funny, then. Good luck! jan
Blessings, Suz
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I imagine having your period for so long is very annoying and stressful for you.
Your doctor is aware of your physical condition and will be careful to watch for
signs of a severe problem.
Getting thoughts into your head and dealing with them is something that was
a problem for me early in my illness and when I was much younger--
I spent hours reading and calling doctors to only find I was obsessing!
In time I learned to distract myself and my thoughts and realize when I was being
obsessive!
If you realize part of this illness is worrying about being physically ill
then perhaps you can reason with yourself. Once I realized that others thought the way I did helped me overcome some of my fear!
You are not alone in this and we care about you!
I am glad the panic is not in high gear!!
Tomorrow night is chat night so we will be here!
Be good to yourself, Judy