Feeling insecure at home
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Feeling insecure at home
| Mon, 03-21-2005 - 8:44am |
I don't know why this has started. I just wish it would leave me alone and I would feel more secure. Starting about January I started having an episode of bad depression and anxiety and panic. Then I started not wanting to be at home alone. I feel scared in my own home. I go to my bf's on weekends and I feel better there but when I come home I feel like I walked into a bad place. I feel empty and alone. I don't know how to feel better about being alone. I want to enjoy my home and some alone time but I seem to just sit in a paralyzed state and do nothing or get on the computer or I leave and visit my mom. Has anyone ever felt this way or understand or how I can handle this?
Tina~

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Hi Tina,
You are not alone in feeling insecure at home. About Dec. 2004, my husband started developing the same type of feeling. At first he was "afraid" to go upstairs to the master bedroom alone. Now it's developed to the point where he will not stay home alone. He knows that logically, there is nothing to fear, but it is an overwhelming feeling that comes from within and gives him actual chills.....even on a nice, warm sunny day. There is no let up on this feeling, even when he drives, shops, etc. Related to this is some memory issues, which might be a result of the chemo treatments he had over 15 years ago. I regret I cannot offer any suggestions, but I just wanted to let you know that you are not alone on this issue. He will be seeing his physician soon, and we will discuss further any potential treatments.
Hi Tina-
I can highly sympathize with you and your current feeling's. It sounds as though some agoraphobia is setting in. I had a bad panic attack on my way to class last week, while I've been dealing with panic now for about 2 yrs, it started getting better, but as a result of that one epi last week, I now find it hard alllll over agin to be alone. EVEN in my own home in which I love. It's so easy for a therapist or someone to say, relax, think positive, do something to keep active, but in reality, it doesn't help. In a perfect world, it would be able to be acomplished, but it's far beyond that. This morning I woke, and as soon as I opned my eyes and realized fiance was leaving for work, it started. You know, those so unwanted feelings and for WHAT, no reason. Sun is shining, beautiful day, no negative thought's, figured I would paint, but the body is controling the mind and the forces are unbeatable. So what did I do. Now don't laugh, because it works. I turn on the music, and to release alllllllllll that built up adrenaline, (Which that is what anxiety/panic is) an overabundance of adrenaline release, I started dancing and jumping around my house :D and of course, took my trusty xanax. Soon enough, those feelings subsided. An undrenaline rush needs to be released. Like a run around the block. It works.
But sunshine, you are so not alone and you will soon realize there is help. I sure hope you are seeking the help from a "Qualified" psychiatrist and not your MD, and also, that you are in some form of cognative therapy. A therapy in which I just did my reasearch paper on for a psych class. I have so many resources if you need, for a therapist search. ALSO, to anyone in the NY, NJ, Conn area. I HIGHLY recommend picking up, Castle Connolly's book titled, "Top Doctors"! Because in back of book lists every condition from A-Z known to man, INCLUDING, anxiety, depression, panic, etc, etc, and lists those doctors who come HIGHLY recommended by other doctor's. Incredible book. You can also search on their website but it is SO limited, I suggest the book.
www.castleconnolly.com
Medication works wonder's! However, so that agoraphobia doesn't set in to the extreme, you must learn to stay in your home alone and not avoid it. Otherwise, it will get worse. So, turn on the music, and jump around the house :D
Hugs-
Jenn
I've been having the same problem for about 2 weeks now. I stopped working due to stress and took an MLOA. I feel like the anxiety is just spiraling out of control. First it was my fear of driving, then of leaving the house alone, now I don't like to be home alone, either. I have been feeling very off balance, has that happened to anyone else? I literally want to hold my husbands hand when I'm out of the house. My MD checked my ears out yesterday, gave me amoxcillin for a sore throat, but I don't think that's the cause, although I hope it is! Can increased anxiety make you feel off balance when you walk? I'm taking xanax 4x/day.
Sheri Ann
Sheri Ann
WOW&*^$?!@%$#? 4x a day? What strength? YES, I too, feel like at any moment when the panic comes on, I'm about to fall over. That will do that. Like a diabetic whose suger just dropped. Those are the symptoms. I will fumble, stutter, become dazed, forget thing's ALLLLLL the time.....oh my. I do have a cholesteatoma, (ear cyst) which is being operated on in 2 wks, but I think it's mostly the symptoms of my agoraphobia. I'd rather have GAD than agoraphobia any day. God, it's so hard dealing w/ that. Are you on any medication besides the xanax?
Hugs-
jenn
Hello, Sheri Ann & welcome to our community. You are not alone. Many have reported feelings of unreality
Sheri Ann
Sheri Ann
Hi Sheri ann-
Listen. The dose you take is very low. I take 0.5, and was told if I needed to, could take 10 a day. Didn't realize it was ok, however, I don't think I'd need to take "That" much. About the xanax XR. I tried that, but this is the thing. It's time released, and say you feel a panic attack coming on, or just uncomfortable, like with the regular xanax, you can't take another XR. You take one and that's it. When I was on it, I would have periods through out the day in which I felt the need for a xanax, but since I was taking XR, was unable to take another. So, I stopped and wanted to go back to the regular xanax on my normal, "As needed" basis. When I felt that feeling come. Only bad thing about XR.
Don't be afraid of stories, side effects etc, regarding medication, if you do your research, it's the only way to help rid one of panic, THAT and "Therapy"! When I took paxil, and I'm so ANTI medication, I would say withen 3 months I was doing GREAT! Felt so NORMAL. Like a retard, stopped taking it because I felt great and once again, normal. No side effects, however, in begining, like with everything, you body does need to get use to it. Goes away in a few days. So I stopped it, and wouldn't you know, one epi brought it allllll BACK! So, I went on Lexapro, as I had some in my house. When I went back to psychiatrist, he kept me on the lexapro. It's been about 3weeks, and if it doesn't help (the normal 3 months) I WILL go back to paxil.
When I did my research paper on panic and agoraphobia for psych class, there was only one thing that was listed in all literature regarding Anxiety disorders as treatment, and that was CBT (Cognative behavioral therapy) and SSRI's. Both together hold huge promises of a successful recovery from all. I'm the queen of resources when it comes to CBT. I want you to know that there is a light at the end of the tunnel, but the light can't be found without the right resources to find it. That's medication AND..........THERAPY. And I don't mean with any ole therapist. I mean CBT with a qualified CBT. Taking a xanax, and a xanx only, will never cure you, or I or anyone else with this disorder, FROM this disorder! That is a fact. I went to my primary at first, but as per him and myself, when the real problem sets in, it's time to see a "psychiatrist" and a "therapist" and with medication (Which never be afraid to take) because if you were told you were a diabetic, would you or would you NOT take your medication? Of course you would, so for this, it's no different. You'll get better, I promise, but with anything, you first need the right resources.
If you need a push, or some help, let me know. I'm here if you need it ;-) Feel free to email me. JenieLJ74 at AOL
Hugs, and Happy Easter!
-Jenn
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