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Today is my last day
| Mon, 03-21-2005 - 9:51am |
tomorrow is my complete hysterectomy. i am 23 yrs old. last night i had to attend my SIL's baby shower. there was another very pregnant woman there besides her, and also a baby someone brought along. it was very difficult to sit there, knowing i should be pregnant and planning my own baby shower, if only i hadn't had those 2 miscarriages...then the 4 surgeries following that...and now tomorrow is already here.
DH feels sick today. he has no idea how i feel! he has been very supportive, it would be unfair of me to be rude that he doesn't feel well. DS is here, waiting for DH to take him to daycare. once they are gone i will get things done around the house, laundry and clean up the kitchen. lay out DS's clothes for the week since DH can't make anything match and sends DS out looking like an orphan child. well now i'm rambling.
i will be in the hospital 3-5 days, my surgery is supposed to be by 9 AM tomorrow (CT US time). i dread waking up. the pain will be unimagineable, even with the drugs, and likely i will wake to that tube down my throat - which causes an immediate panic attack, no matter how drugged i am.
please pray for me, i know it will hurt, but i am scared. i am so young, and about to enter menopause head on.
~leslie
DH feels sick today. he has no idea how i feel! he has been very supportive, it would be unfair of me to be rude that he doesn't feel well. DS is here, waiting for DH to take him to daycare. once they are gone i will get things done around the house, laundry and clean up the kitchen. lay out DS's clothes for the week since DH can't make anything match and sends DS out looking like an orphan child. well now i'm rambling.
i will be in the hospital 3-5 days, my surgery is supposed to be by 9 AM tomorrow (CT US time). i dread waking up. the pain will be unimagineable, even with the drugs, and likely i will wake to that tube down my throat - which causes an immediate panic attack, no matter how drugged i am.
please pray for me, i know it will hurt, but i am scared. i am so young, and about to enter menopause head on.
~leslie

Leslie - I hope all goes well for you. From what I have read, you do have a son so maybe try to focus on being thankful that you have been able to have 1 child at least. I know that is easier said than done. Look at it this way, maybe you are getting all of your bad luck with health out of the way now and will have many years to come of good health.
Hang in there.
Kim
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Danielle
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