panic from int. thought...

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Registered: 03-27-2003
panic from int. thought...
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Sat, 03-26-2005 - 10:28pm

any moms out there with int. thoughts??

i have been dealing with this for 4 years and
i do pretty well (paxil and xanex as needed)
and hearing alot of "me too's" have helped.

my dh has had the same thoughts but he just
dismisses them as riduculous (lucky bas---)!!

i am so aware that these are not me, how does it
still get to me sometimes??

can anyone relate?
please respond,
kris

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Registered: 03-11-2004
Sun, 03-27-2005 - 6:46am
Hi, Kris! Nice to see you. I am sorry the intrusive thoughts are still causing you concern. Please remind yourself that you won't act on them. It's good to hear that you now know that the thoughts are NOT you. I think we would all feel better if science could give us an adequate explanation as to why these thoughts occur. In the past, I was bothered by them. I remember sitting on the steps outside my home, all night, as the thoughts were strong that I would harm my kids in someway. I was cold & tired, but the thoughts were there, even though I had no specific plan. It was a disturbing & unsettling feeling that something would go wrong. Hang in there, Kris. My T&P's are with you. Focus on positive things & keep yourself occupied to ward these intrusions away. Good luck! (((hugs))) jan



 

 


 



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Registered: 08-13-2003
Mon, 03-28-2005 - 5:07pm
Speaking of intrusive thoughts..does anyone have any suggestions on how to tell a doctor you have intrusive thoughts without sounding crazy? I saw a therapist for the first time for my anxiety (or what I think is anxiety) and I tried explaining that at times my mind just races with thoughts and I can't control them. I can only imagine what she was thinking. What's worse is my BF is a very mellow person and I know he doesn't really understand what I've been going through. I try my best to replace the negative thoughts with positive ones and have started listening to meditative music before I sleep. I was feeling fine for almost a week and then today had some int thoughts and got scared all over again. When this happens I'm so scared almost like a fear of losing my mind. Is that normal for anxiety sufferers? And if it is how do you tell the DR without sounding a little off...
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Registered: 03-11-2004
Mon, 03-28-2005 - 6:57pm

Hi, Jade! Sorry to hear the thoughts are still interfering & causing you concern. We all have had the fear of going crazy @ one time or another. With severe anxiety it's a given. Here's a recent & very informative thread that will help you. http://messageboards.ivillage.com/n/mb/message.asp?webtag=iv-bhpanic&msg=15934.1

 

 


 



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Registered: 11-16-2004
Tue, 03-29-2005 - 2:48pm
Kris, I responded before to your previous post and said how much I can relate to the thoughts. I'm a mom too and have had these terrible thoughts for 6 months, although they have calmed down. But when they do pop in, they bother me just like they do you. our reaction is good b/c we are rational enough to know they are wrong and we don't want them. Do you go to therapy? Just wondering if you were given a reason the thoughts are with you after 4 years. If you want to talk more, feel free to email me at phooker@mail.med.upenn.edu. It's good to talk to people who are going thru it. Currently, I am not on meds and deal with the thoughts by using alot of coping skills. It's anxiety causing the thoughts, not us on our own. as much as I tell myself it's not me, I still feel terrible for thinking what I do. I think, here's my precious baby that I love more than life and why the hell am I thinking what I do towards him. What the hell is wrong with me and why is this happening to me? It's not fair. And I fear they will never go away. Can you give advice on how you handled it for 4 years? Do the thoughts come on when you feel stressed? that's what happens to me. Good luck to you. Take care. patsy
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Registered: 03-29-2003
Tue, 03-29-2005 - 6:12pm

Hi,

I can totally relate. I have suffered with intrusive thoughts for several years now. It became worse when I was pregnant with my son. I was hospitilazed because the thoughts were causing so much anxiety that I was afriad I might hurt myself. It was discovered then that I had OCD with severe anxiety problems. My son is 5 now and I still have what I like to call episodes of intrusive thoughts, which are followed by immense anxiety and panic attacks. I logically know that they are just thoughts, but they seem so scary and can really make you feel like your a bad person. I really struggle with the idea that because I am thinking these things I must be bad or I might turn into a bad person. That just isn't true though. You have to tell your self that these are just thoughts and the fact that it is causing you so much heartache and turmoil proves that you are not a bad person, because a bad person wouldn't care so much. You are not alone, I was shocked to find out how many other mom's are suffereing with this.

Candie

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Registered: 03-11-2004
Tue, 03-29-2005 - 6:24pm
Welcome, Candie. It's a pleasure to have you here. It seems you have alot of experience to share with us & insight into these intrusions. I can relate to feeling like a bad mom when the thoughts were intense. Just like so many obssessive thoughts, we have to convince ourselves that really isn't us. Thank you so much for reminding us, * a bad person wouldn't care so much.* That is so true & certainly reassuring. Drop in anytime. Join us in chat when you can. Sending P&PT's your way. Good luck! (((hugs))) jan



 

 


 



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Registered: 03-29-2003
Wed, 03-30-2005 - 12:10pm

Thank you
It is so nice to find a place where you can talk with other people who you know understand the struggle. I will try and make it to one of the chats soon.

Candie