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| Fri, 04-22-2005 - 11:16am |
Hi all,
I am a 26 yr old mom of twins.
I have a great marriage.
The beginning of this year has been so hard. I have been through a lot.
I started noticing that my heart was reacing a bit more then usual, then I started to feel spacey and disconnected.
I tried to ignore this and it got better, I had more good days then bad. This past week my dh had to go away on business and he has had health problems so I was scared. I woke up in the middle of the night on tuesday shaking and I was just petrified. I couldn't stop my heart from pounding.
The next day I came clean with everyone and went to see the Dr. she gave me lexapro and told me that I will be ok. She said that this actually quite normal. a lot of people have anxiety.
Ever since the other day I haven't felt ok. I feel like I;m in a fog and I feel like I'm going crazy and loosing my mind.
Can anyone help here? I really need to talk to someone who knows...

Thank you Debbie,
I told my family and friends this week also, I have a great support system.
I have an appt. on monday with a therapist. I hope that will help. This the most helpless feeling I have ever had. I am so scared...
Hi Jan,
THANK YOU!
I'll tell a bit more about myself...
As far as my Dad goes, he died unexpedidly and we weren't speaking at the time, it was a bloodclot after surgery. I do think this goes back to that...
heres my story that brought this on...
my Mom had an obstruction in her stomach, she was hospitalized and releazed, a day later she had to have emergency surgery. I spent my days and nights at the hospital with her afraid that she'd have a bloodclot and die.
She came home and dh took me to the er for chest pain, little did I know that this was anxiety. A few days later I pulled a muscle in my back and went to the Dr. I was told to rest.
Later that day my hands and feet went numb a tingly. Again dh took me to the Er and again nothing was wrong. Anxiety but I didn't know it.
A week later I awoke withj BAD oains in my stomack, I went to the bathroom and had rectal bleeding A LOT. I was scared and called the Dr. this time they told me to go the the ER. It turned out to be colitis. I also found out that I have diverticulosos..the same condition that ultimatelly led the her surgery. I was PETRIFIED. My dh was the best..THEN I was put on a med for my stomach that also is used for anxiety. Liberax (sp) and thats when it all went downhill. I started that not in reality feeling.
Eventually I started to get better.... I was coming out of it and having good days. I work p/t 2 night a week waitressing. I even went back to work, on my 2nd day back I got a call the dh was being taken by ambulance to the hospital bacause he was bleeding uncontrollably from his nose. I got the the hospital and he was there and he had a bucket to catch the blood, I called my FIL and told him to get the FAST. I thought that dh was going to die, I really did.
In the end they put a nasal packing in his nose. I have NEVER heard someone scream so bad in pain. I can still see his face when they did that. He was on heavy pain meds for a few days then we went to get the packing out and see what needed to be done. Dh passed out from pain when they took it out. In the end he needed to have his nose cauterized.
So in the meantime I was doing better, THEN I found out the my Mom has skin cancer, my Grandmother had to have surgery and my precious son has a heart mumur.
I have been doing well adn I thought that maybe I had beat this, THEN monday night dh changed his cotton in his nose (its still there with neosporin to heal the area where it ws cauterized) he took the cotton out and their was BLOOD. I felt my hands go numb right there.
Dh was also flying out the next mornign for business.... o woke up IN A PANIC. I was so scared and I haven't felt good since.
Thats when I decided that I needed help, the Dr saw my right away and is wonderful. I took 5mg of lexapro yesterday and vomited and was so tired. The Dr. said to try taking it tonight instead and that should also help with insomia.
Thank you everyone for reading this