Am I alone?

iVillage Member
Registered: 01-17-2001
Am I alone?
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Fri, 04-22-2005 - 11:16am

Hi all,
I am a 26 yr old mom of twins.
I have a great marriage.

The beginning of this year has been so hard. I have been through a lot.
I started noticing that my heart was reacing a bit more then usual, then I started to feel spacey and disconnected.

I tried to ignore this and it got better, I had more good days then bad. This past week my dh had to go away on business and he has had health problems so I was scared. I woke up in the middle of the night on tuesday shaking and I was just petrified. I couldn't stop my heart from pounding.
The next day I came clean with everyone and went to see the Dr. she gave me lexapro and told me that I will be ok. She said that this actually quite normal. a lot of people have anxiety.

Ever since the other day I haven't felt ok. I feel like I;m in a fog and I feel like I'm going crazy and loosing my mind.

Can anyone help here? I really need to talk to someone who knows...

iVillage Member
Registered: 06-02-2003
In reply to: mom_mrs_t
Fri, 04-22-2005 - 11:39am
Hi there, I was about your age when I started showing symptoms of all that you are talking about and now I am almost 53. First of all you are not crazy and you are definately not the only one. Of course I am not a Dr. and I cannot say that you will never feel as you did before or that you will. I always advise therapy if at all possible, because I believe in it along with the right medication. At one point in my life I was totally agoraphobic, could not even talk on the phone, I hyperventilated constantly.

 

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Registered: 03-11-2004
In reply to: mom_mrs_t
Fri, 04-22-2005 - 11:41am

Hi! Nice to have you here. You are NOT alone. Please take some time to read the posts & the articles @ the top of this page & the folders below. Many of us have the same symptoms as you do. We have racing hearts that lead us to seek medical help, only to find that

 

 


 



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Registered: 01-17-2001
In reply to: mom_mrs_t
Fri, 04-22-2005 - 11:42am

Thank you Debbie,
I told my family and friends this week also, I have a great support system.

I have an appt. on monday with a therapist. I hope that will help. This the most helpless feeling I have ever had. I am so scared...

iVillage Member
Registered: 06-02-2003
In reply to: mom_mrs_t
Fri, 04-22-2005 - 11:52am
You are so very welcome. Just hang in there, it will get better but it takes alittle time and with a good support group, you are already ahead of the game. (((hugs to you))) Debbie

 

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Registered: 01-17-2001
In reply to: mom_mrs_t
Fri, 04-22-2005 - 12:06pm

Hi Jan,
THANK YOU!

I'll tell a bit more about myself...

As far as my Dad goes, he died unexpedidly and we weren't speaking at the time, it was a bloodclot after surgery. I do think this goes back to that...

heres my story that brought this on...

my Mom had an obstruction in her stomach, she was hospitalized and releazed, a day later she had to have emergency surgery. I spent my days and nights at the hospital with her afraid that she'd have a bloodclot and die.

She came home and dh took me to the er for chest pain, little did I know that this was anxiety. A few days later I pulled a muscle in my back and went to the Dr. I was told to rest.
Later that day my hands and feet went numb a tingly. Again dh took me to the Er and again nothing was wrong. Anxiety but I didn't know it.

A week later I awoke withj BAD oains in my stomack, I went to the bathroom and had rectal bleeding A LOT. I was scared and called the Dr. this time they told me to go the the ER. It turned out to be colitis. I also found out that I have diverticulosos..the same condition that ultimatelly led the her surgery. I was PETRIFIED. My dh was the best..THEN I was put on a med for my stomach that also is used for anxiety. Liberax (sp) and thats when it all went downhill. I started that not in reality feeling.

Eventually I started to get better.... I was coming out of it and having good days. I work p/t 2 night a week waitressing. I even went back to work, on my 2nd day back I got a call the dh was being taken by ambulance to the hospital bacause he was bleeding uncontrollably from his nose. I got the the hospital and he was there and he had a bucket to catch the blood, I called my FIL and told him to get the FAST. I thought that dh was going to die, I really did.

In the end they put a nasal packing in his nose. I have NEVER heard someone scream so bad in pain. I can still see his face when they did that. He was on heavy pain meds for a few days then we went to get the packing out and see what needed to be done. Dh passed out from pain when they took it out. In the end he needed to have his nose cauterized.

So in the meantime I was doing better, THEN I found out the my Mom has skin cancer, my Grandmother had to have surgery and my precious son has a heart mumur.

I have been doing well adn I thought that maybe I had beat this, THEN monday night dh changed his cotton in his nose (its still there with neosporin to heal the area where it ws cauterized) he took the cotton out and their was BLOOD. I felt my hands go numb right there.
Dh was also flying out the next mornign for business.... o woke up IN A PANIC. I was so scared and I haven't felt good since.
Thats when I decided that I needed help, the Dr saw my right away and is wonderful. I took 5mg of lexapro yesterday and vomited and was so tired. The Dr. said to try taking it tonight instead and that should also help with insomia.

Thank you everyone for reading this

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Registered: 06-02-2003
In reply to: mom_mrs_t
Fri, 04-22-2005 - 1:17pm
Okay it is me again. I never spend this much time at the board but today I am like gravitated to it. lol I read what Jan wrote, she is the best and I read your profile also. I don't know how young your Dad was when he died but my mother was 50, lung cancer. My 1/2 sister at 47. See I was 25yrs old when I lost my Mom, 5 yrs later is when I lost my grandfather. That is when I totally lost it. they wanted to medicate me at the hospital but I would not let them and then the next day I had my first full blown panic attack, but of course I did not know thats what it was. For so young in your years you have went thru alot in a short period of time. Tragedy, sorrow and stress can sure do a number on us. Thank God your babies are okay and doing well. Hubby is doing better too, thats good. With your attitude,