How Do You Do It?

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Registered: 04-24-2003
How Do You Do It?
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Fri, 05-06-2005 - 12:09am

I have severe depression, social anxiety plus I'm fat, on the verge of diabetes and have that ovarian cyst thing.

But my question is:
I cannot work because I get so sick and cry when I have to be around people. I also feel like I'm outside of myself when I talk to people, like I hide in myself while I giggle and try to talk but I never make sense. I once had a staffing specialist at one of those staffing agencies say that I would never get a job acting like that-because I couldn't talk or look her in the eye. Basically I'm a walking tomato when it comes to talking to people. I walk the dog, sometimes will drive around or even manage to go to a thrift store or two but those are the only places I go to, well besides my moms house in the next state....

I haven't tried to get on temporary disability until I straighten out my head. I just cannot afford to go to the doctor-even the county/state health department or a sliding scale place. I'm just sort of stuck in life with no hope or no where to go. My only option is to get over myself so I can help pay the bills before we are evicted.

So after all that, HOW in the world are you (as in people like me) able to live in this world? Besides being on medication, which I have no money for.

My life is so hopeless that it isn't even funny. I'm the worlds fattest chicken when it comes to life. HELP!

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Registered: 03-19-2003
Fri, 05-06-2005 - 12:41am
Welcome to this community!!

Blessings, Suz   Posts in this Community   

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Registered: 03-11-2004
Fri, 05-06-2005 - 7:37am

Hello & welcome to our safe & supportive community. My mom used to tell me, *can't or won't never did anything.* Whenever I talk like you, my gf always says, *you need a dose of PMA.* POSITIVE MENTAL ATTITUDE Everything you have talked about is fixable. You need to want to fix them first. Suz gave you alot of good ideas.


As far as meds go, I bumped up a post in the *what's new on health* folder below. But, I will copy & paste it for you here:


Here is a newly formed organization *Partnership for Prescription Assistance.* It has access to 275 private programs to help, as well as 150 programs provided by drug companies.

 

 


 



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Registered: 01-17-2001
Fri, 05-06-2005 - 12:09pm

You got some great advice from the other girls...

I was overweight last year, I finally decided that only *I* could do something about it. I joined Weight Watchers and have lost 46 lbs.

If you are not up for going to meetings you can join online or just checkout the weight watchers board here on IV.

Look into state funded programs and it sounds as though you really need to look up the possibility of getting disability benefits. You state may had some great programs as far as meds go. Call you local menatl health office and talk to them. I think you'll be surprised at the amount of help you can get, you may just have to dig a bit.

Only *YOU* can help yoursef, maybe walk your dog a bit more and go further every day.

HTH
~Heather

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Registered: 01-26-2005
Fri, 05-06-2005 - 9:26pm

Hey, congrats Heather, on the weight loss! That's how much I'd like to lose, too.

Renee

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Registered: 03-19-2003
Sat, 05-07-2005 - 12:00am
The weight loss is such an achievement!!!

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Registered: 01-17-2001
Sat, 05-07-2005 - 9:52am

Why thank you. I am happy about it too!
It was hard in the beginning but when I saw how much food my body needs vs. how much I was eating I was shocked.

I believe that it has also helped me now, I am in better health now and that makes me more able to fight this crap I have.

Heather

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Registered: 04-24-2003
Sat, 05-07-2005 - 3:31pm

Thanks everyone for the input. I'm going to try and get up enough nerve to call the health department monday and see if they can help me even though i have no money.

i think if i lost weight i'd be a little more better at going places. I don't know what is wrong with me that I cannot put down food. I always want to eat! The other day I sat down with some pudding and ate it all! Ugghhh. I have no self control.

Anyhow, thanks everyone for posting. I appreciate everyones support. :)

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Registered: 01-17-2001
Sat, 05-07-2005 - 9:29pm
Please update us and let us know how you are. Their is no reason why you should go throught this alone when we are all here.
P&PT
~Heather
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Registered: 10-24-2004
Sat, 05-07-2005 - 11:55pm
Hey Heather Congrats on losing the weight!!! I just got my membership to the YMCA last week & have really been gung ho about losing weight (75 lbs.), but I know it is gonna take ALOT of hard work & determination, which is sometimes hard with a mental disorder... Wish Me Luck Guys!!!