Feeling anxious tonight...

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Registered: 01-17-2001
Feeling anxious tonight...
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Wed, 06-08-2005 - 9:58pm

Hi Girls,


I have been feeling on edge since this morning when I got my period back again. That just kind of set me off.


I went to see my tdoc and she is encouraged by my progress. She really thinks that I am doing great. We even got off topic a bit and laughed. I had an ok day...not bad.


At about 4:30 I started to feel like I was shaking inside. I took my klnopin and told myself that I was ok. I then went shopping with my Mom, dh and the Boys. I was feeing a bit on edge so then on our way home we were at the drive through and I all of a sudden started to feel out of it. I was awful, I just wanted to get home.


I realized that I was 45 minutes late in taking my lexapro so I took that and my klonopin.


I took a bath and was hoping to feel better.. here I am still on edge with my hands numb, its awful, I even have the unreal feeling a bit. I am so scared that i will wake up like this and that I will be back to where I was 6 weeks ago.


I am just scared and venting a bit I suppose. I'm sure that setbacks are ok and I did have a trigger but I am just upset and scared.


Dh is starting to be less supportive, I think that he's sick of me talking about it. I don't know...

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Registered: 05-12-2003
Wed, 06-08-2005 - 10:53pm
hey Heather, sucks that you're feeling so anxious today I know how frustrating that must feel. I think you're doing the right thhough by keeping busy and not letting the anxiety dictate your life. Instead of worrying about going back to feeling the way you did 6 weeks ago, you should remind yourself of how your felt last week and the progress you have made. try to focus on the obstacle you've overcome. there are probably a lot of reasons you are feeling anxious right now, with the wedding coming up and your period this morning...plus the heat and humidity doesn't help, it can trigger feelings of panic many times. also remember that even with lexapro and klonopin there are occassional breakthrough panic attacks that still occur, but the medication is still working.
as for your Dh, he's probably under a lot of stress right now. It must get hard for our significant others to always be supportive, but im sure he tries his best.
I hope tomorrow is a better day for you and that you get a good night's rest.
mia

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Registered: 03-11-2004
Wed, 06-08-2005 - 11:22pm
ITA with Mia's always insightful, right on target replies. I, too, hope you feel better. I think this will all blow over after the wedding. I remember a month ago, you posted to see what we thought about you going to the grocery store. You were very frightened. You've come along way, gf:) Try to keep all the progress you have made uppermost in your mind. That *stinkin' thinkin'* that Julie(jukie33) always talks about will getcha everytime. Sending P&PT's. (((hugs))) jan



 

 


 



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Registered: 01-17-2001
Thu, 06-09-2005 - 9:55am

Thank you girls


I am still anxious today. We just got up and already me hands are numb.


I am going to go an exercise and my Mother in Law is coming over to do the last fitting for the Boys tux's.


I am very scared and I don't like feeling this way. Its just so hard to feel as though you have taken a step in the other direction..


Thank you all for your support!!!

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Registered: 01-26-2005
Thu, 06-09-2005 - 2:48pm

Hi Heather, me again, lol...

I was going to say what Jan already said. Remember how far you've come. Remember how bad it used to?! You ARE getting better. Sometimes it's two steps forward and one step back, but you're still getting there! You will not go back to the way you were before. Keep telling yourself that.

As far as dh, I imagine sometimes it must get hard for our SO to keep listening to us. My dh is the same way. They can try to be empathetic, but they really and truly cannot understand what it is like for us. Can you expand your support network at all? Can you call a relative or friend sometimes when you are anxious? Are there are local support groups for anxiety?

Please remember, you can email me anytime, by clicking on my profile! That goes for anyone. I work 10:30 - 5:00, but I will get back to you.

Renee

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Registered: 05-18-2005
Fri, 06-10-2005 - 10:17am
Hi Heather, I am new to this board. I have posted a few times, and the messages have helped me tremendously. It sounds like you have come a long way already, and there are setbacks. No question about that, I have them too. I will get days when I feel so good, and think I have this thing conquered and the very next day I will wake up and feel so anxious and it's really depressing for me. I think you have a busy time coming up and things like that can make me very anxious and shaky. My Dr told me to take some deep breaths when that happens, and keep telling myself that I am going to be alright. So hopefully things go better for you. Jan
Jan