I think I am an alcoholic

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Registered: 12-08-2004
I think I am an alcoholic
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Thu, 06-16-2005 - 12:05am
Ok, all I have been thinking about lately is alcohol. Before i started meds about a month ago, i used to drink all of the time. At first, it didnt bother me, but now i crave it. All I want is to get drunk, and I sit around and try to think of ways to not take my meds for a day, or switch them around, and I waste so much time thinking about it. Im sorry there really is no point to this message other than I am venting. I know i shouldn't drink, and I probably won't, but I think Im going through withdrawl or something because it is making me more anxious. All week I have felt so unreal and terrible I just have a craving to get high or drunk--thi sis aweful. ugh. i hate anxiety.
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Registered: 12-08-2004
Thu, 06-16-2005 - 12:17am
oh ya, i also think im dying and that i am going to die in my sleep, so if you never hear from me again, than i did die. im convinced i have something wrong with me.
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Registered: 03-11-2004
Thu, 06-16-2005 - 1:42am

God love ya, Katie. You have anxiety & panic attacks. I have feared that I was dying for nearly 35 years when panic struck. I am just able to cope better with a panic attack, even though the fear pops into my mind.

 

 


 



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Registered: 04-07-2003
Thu, 06-16-2005 - 2:01am
Katie There was a time when I drank to rid myself of anxiety!
Especially social anxiety!! Going to a party have a few before
so I could relax and enjoy myself! This was self medicating
I would also use alcohol to help me fall asleep-
Alcohol dulled the pain but as you know the good feelings never
last with alcohol!! Just keep taking your meds they will help you
much more than alcohol- it is a old friend that wasn't good for you!
Take care Katie! Judy
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Registered: 10-17-2004
Thu, 06-16-2005 - 2:25am

Katie,


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iVillage Member
Registered: 12-08-2004
Thu, 06-16-2005 - 11:35am

Hey guys. thanks so much for your kind words and help. Maybe im not an alcoholic, i just think i miss the numbing of emotions it brought to me. Well look-Im not dead--yay! I hope that you are all well and thank you so much-you all need to know how much i appreciate all of your responses! I will be praying for all of you!

Katie

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Registered: 04-18-2003
Thu, 06-16-2005 - 9:10pm

Katie, maybe your doc could give you something to help you through this? Do you take ativan or xanax? I can't remember!?

Sheri Ann

Sheri Ann

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Registered: 05-27-2005
Thu, 06-16-2005 - 9:59pm

I agree w/the last poster about Xanax or Ativan. Maybe you need something to help with your anxiety, just for a short term. For what it's worth, that drunk or high feeling doesn't last forever.

Honestly, since I got pregnant, I thought I would miss the wine, but I really haven't. It's such a strange feeling to be without it for so many months (I used to love wine with dinner), but then again, it's nice to be clear-headed. I see more, I guess.

Anyway, definitely get the help you need and take good care of yourself. You know we're here for you on this board. Take advantage of the links that Jan posted.

Kendra