I am in need of a pep talk..!

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I am in need of a pep talk..!
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Mon, 06-20-2005 - 11:55am

Hi Girls,


I had a pretty good weeked. Dh and I did a lot of things. I even felt like myself most of the weekend.


I am just having a hard time with feeling out of it and I have the unreal feeling. I feel disconnected today.


My therapist thinks that I may be doing it to myself and i wonder that too. I don't know how it is that I can be ok with dh but as soon as he's not here I feel out if it again.


I am just having a hard time again, I am getting those intense fear feeling back again. I am so SCARED that i will never feel normal again. i CAN'T live my life like this, it HAS to get better.


I am hoping that the increase in lexapro will be that last kick that I need. My pdoc said that it will take months for me to really feel better, it had already been 2. My pdoc as well as my tdoc both say that I am doing great, I have even dropped down to seeing my tdoc every 2 weeks and my pdoc 1 a month.


I am just afraid and having a hard time. Dh is so GREAT and I am so happy to have him.


For those of you who are religous.. I am having a hard time with that.


I belong to a nondemonitial Christian church.. yesterday at church we had a women who is a member get up and talk and she told us about how she had gone blind in one eye and they found out that she had a benign tumor in her head. She had surgery and her eyesight came back.. she said that the Dr.'s have never seen anyone regain their eyesight after having that happen. She praised God.


She then started talking about her "strong holdings" and how she really found God in that time and got all of her strong holdings released. She then said that anyone who wanted could come up front and she would pray with/for them. To be honest, I thought she was

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Registered: 04-18-2003
Tue, 06-21-2005 - 11:43am

Heather, I don't understand it either. Especially since I actually said I'd be WILLING to take Lexapro! (I made that decision from seeing how far you have come!) My thinking is he uses lexapro solely for depression and not anxiety. His reply to me was there are alot of newer & better drugs out there now than lexapro. I thought lexapro was new! I don't get it. They all go to med school & all form their own opinions, I feel like I'm going to start losing ground again. When I go to CT for 4th of July, I thought about going to my usual pdoc, I don't know, I'm so confused & I have to pay out of pocket for all these visits! $175 yesterday - for what? added stress!

Sheri Ann

Sheri Ann

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Registered: 03-11-2004
Tue, 06-21-2005 - 2:08pm

It makes my blood boil too, Sheri Ann! I have had panic attacks for nearly 35 years & though lexapro is a newer drug, this family of drugs is considered to be very effective. I am wondering if your pdoc isn't the type that when the patient suggests something, even something that's a good idea, he just automatically vetoes it cause it's some sort of assault to his giant ego??? Being an RN, I have known quite a few of these *legends in their own minds.*


I was put on xanax years ago by a respected pdoc who told me I would have to take it forever. @ that time, it was the current view. It has changed over the years & each dr. & each patient has their own personal opinions. What has NOT changed is the awful anxiety we have to live through. You don't have to take the xanax forever. I am proof of that. In fact, I recently was well enough to work myself off klonopin. But, Debbie makes some valid points. She isn't addicted to her long term use of xanax. It's prescribed by a respected pdoc. She is functioning well. She has no desire to work off the xanax. Just like one therapist does not fit all, neither do pdocs or family docs or any sort of docs, for that matter.


You have some work to do, Sheri Ann. It involves thinking about what you want & what you need & how you will go about getting it. I am sorry to be so blunt, but we've all BTDT. You hold the power to succeed, gf. We can only suggest. Ultimately it's your decision. I do care about you & wish I could make it all better. Good luck & GBU! (((hugs))) jan



 

 


 



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