Is anyone in the mood

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Registered: 12-08-2004
Is anyone in the mood
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Wed, 06-22-2005 - 9:01pm
Is anyone in the mood for a chat lol. It isnt some big emergency, I just figured if people were on here, could have one?
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Registered: 12-08-2004
Thu, 06-23-2005 - 1:32am
I am just so depressed and anxious right now I think I am going to go check into the local mental institution for a couple of days. I dont know how to describe my feelings I just want to have a damned chat right now.
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Registered: 12-08-2004
Thu, 06-23-2005 - 5:45am
Im sorry I keep having conversations with myself on here but i am just very lonely anxious and scared. i keep thinking im going to die, so i am afraid to sleep. i am so tired but even if i try, i cant sleep because some part of my body goes numb, or i get a burst of anxiety fight or flight crap. its been a rough 24 hours. i have no real friends anymore, i keep thinking about death, i cant sleep, and i dont want to live but i dont want to die and i just DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO!! I am emotionally torn apart. Around 2 I caved and started chugging beers but did it too quickly and threw it all up. If i dont post tomorrow when everyone is awake, i probably died in my sleep or something. sorry to bring you all down. if im still alive ill for sure be in the chat tonight.
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Registered: 05-12-2003
Thu, 06-23-2005 - 8:37am

Hey Katie, hope you're having a better morning. how are you feeling??
do you ever go to your parents when you're feeling anxious?? it really helped me when I was living at home. my mom was always very supportive.
anyway, let us know that you're doing alright and didn't die in your sleep :(

Mia

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Registered: 03-11-2004
Thu, 06-23-2005 - 9:07am
I saw your post last night, Katie, but was knocked off line): Sorry! For now, we want you to be safe. You need to get in touch with your *T* or pdoc & let them know that things are overwhelming. Self medicating with beer isn't going to help & it's downright dangerous. We want to be here for you & we'll listen anytime, but you need *real life* help right away. Telling your parents as Mia suggested is a great idea. Or even going to the ER as you suggested yourself would be a good plan. Maybe being an inpatient is what you need now. I have been hospitalized for depression & panic & it is NOT a shameful thing. You haven't failed. Life has thrown you a curve ball that's impossible to catch. We do care about you & don't want to imagine you taking your life @ 17. Or @ any age. You have alot of living to do. These problems are temporary & suicide is permanent. Please keep in touch. Do the right thing, gf! Sending P&PT's your way. (((hugs))) jan



 

 


 



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Registered: 02-28-2005
Thu, 06-23-2005 - 9:43am
If you, or anybody else, is around right now ... I'd be up for some chatting. Hope you are doing okay ... everything will be fine :-)
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Registered: 07-29-2003
Thu, 06-23-2005 - 10:08am

I am so sorry that I wasn't online last night to chat. I hope your feeling much better today. Please, let us know how you are....((((HUGS)))))

Cassia

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Registered: 12-08-2004
Thu, 06-23-2005 - 2:04pm
Well I am alive--hoorayy. Thank you all. I just had a terrible night. I saw the doctor today and I upped my dose of lexapro again. She convinced me that i am not dying but i still get scared. For all of you who are worried, I promise I would never hurt myself--Im too afraid of death!! I have been talking to my mom about all of this, and I have been inpatient, twice. Thanks again I just wanted to check in and tell you all I am not dead and that i will see you all in the chat tonight!
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Registered: 04-18-2003
Thu, 06-23-2005 - 4:08pm
Thanks for checking in, Katie. My son was alot like you when he was in his teens and I worry about you like I did him. Be patient, it will take time, but it WILL work out for you.
Hugs,
Sheri Ann

Sheri Ann