Trying to help myself, but ...
... the endless stream of thoughts are still there.
This morning, when I woke up - a little less anxious than yesterday morning - I took my counselor's advice and went for a run. When I got back inside, I took .25 mg of xanex, rested a little bit, then took the 2nd of the pill after i was showered and on my way to work. I'm making a real effort to stay up beat and focused on what I need to do today ...
But, and I guess I can't expect them to go away immediately (just b/c I want them to!), the crazy thoughts about my relationship are still there, growing in my mind. I have fun with my BF - we hung out last night - but I still have that anxiety about our relationship that doesn't go away when I'm with him. I HAVE to be making these up ... nothing has changed in our interactions. I'm also stuck on the fact that I've had absolutely no sex drive for what seems like forever now. Is that a normal side effect of anxiety? In my crazy, busy mind, the anxiety is telling me "well maybe you're not attracted to your bf anymore, maybe you don't like having sex" ... which absolutely can't be true right ... Please promise me this is just the anxiety lying to me again!!