Anxiety over the Weekend? How did it Go?

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Anxiety over the Weekend? How did it Go?
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Mon, 06-27-2005 - 7:52am
Take this opportunity to let us know how your weekend went. How was your anxiety? What stressors did you have to face?
 

 


 



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Mon, 06-27-2005 - 10:37am

My weekend was so great - I'm not ready to share - afraid I'll jinx myself! Anyone else?

Sheri Ann

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Mon, 06-27-2005 - 2:15pm
Things went pretty well, here. I didn't stress myself out with a big outdoor
 

 


 



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Mon, 06-27-2005 - 2:46pm

OK, I'll post some more, since it's so quiet here today. Dh took me to the shore for the day on Saturday. I walked for 3-4 miles, going in and out of all those expensive little boutiques. We even snuck in a group on a home & garden tour and toured 2 beautiful gardens, hehehe. I tried to talk him into trying to sneak into the Red Hat's Society group, but he thought we'd stand out, imagine that! I played a couple of practical jokes on him, haven't done that in MONTHS. At first I was so scared - I keep turning around and looking to see how far away our truck was, thinking I still had to walk back, what if something went wrong. When I told him how I felt, he told me he understands, and that's why he took the day off to do this for me. So I could conquer my fears & continue to move forward. That meant so much to me. It was very hard at times, easy at others. I just kept breathing! That's the key for me. I tend to hold my breathe when I'm anxious & scared. We made a great day out of it, took ds for ice cream, boat watching even bought him a net so he could try to catch some minnows off the beach. Then we went for a long ride - cars are my biggest problem. We ran into a friend of ours who we haven't seen in over 5 years at a fishing pier. It was a nice surprise. We went back to his home, something I never feel comfortable doing - I can't even visit my mom or grandma. I couldn't even do Easter dinner with my family this year, I was shaking so bad in the car that dh took me home & went with ds & brought me home a plate. I've really come so far & it means so much to me. I know I can't get back all the time I've lost & wish I could, but I'm trying to focus on the future and I am so happy with where I am going right now. Sunday I tagged along to Lowe's and then we went to Walmart grocery shopping, I have probably gone in a grocery store 3 times in the last 6 months. I didn't get nervous once! Well, except for when I was sneaking my Reese's cups into the cart, hehehe. I also let dh leave me at the beach while he walked to the car for cigs. The truck was in my line of view, but I walked the beach, just to see how I felt, and didn't look over at him. This is the absolute 1st time I've done anything like that in 6 months!!!! I just feel so good about it. I do still have my period, which is 10 days early, but I'm considering it a blessing indisguise since it was due on day 1 of our trip to CT next weekend. I also cut down on my xanax on Wed. last week, I'm taking it 2x/day instead of 4. Once when I wake up & once before I go to bed. I didn't consult a doc, but since it's such an issue with my new doc, I figured I'd rather try this than switching to ativan. He's giving me the ativan to get me off the xanax, like I'm going to need detox or something. I'm feeling fine. So, you see why I don't want to jinx myself! If I can make to to the dentist with ds tomorrow & to counseling tomorrow night, I might try to go down to 1 dose in the a.m. - or maybe I'll wait another week. I'm going to talk to my counselor about it tomorrow night. He's a psychologist & a great guy!! Sorry so long, but I'm feeling on top of the world!! BTW, I was hesitant to post about the xanax reduction, since there is no md involved, but I can't really consult with anyone since he changed me to ativan last week. A doc should be involved and that's why I'm slowly stopping it. How's everyone else??

Sheri Ann

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Mon, 06-27-2005 - 2:58pm
Whoo hoo! You go, gf! That was ALOT to accomplish & you did so well. I am happy you came back to share that, Sheri Ann. It is such an inspiration to all of us on the board. Especially our newbies. You have done alot of hard work to get in a good place. Wishing you continued success! (((hugs))) jan



 

 


 



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Mon, 06-27-2005 - 3:41pm

Thanks so much Jan. It as alot for me, or any of us, that's for sure! When I think back to just 6 months ago when I was afraid to step off the front step onto the grass, it just overwhelms me!

Sheri Ann

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Mon, 06-27-2005 - 6:40pm
Hey Jan-Sorry to hear about your mid of the nite anxiety, I hope as soon as 'that time of the month' is over and done with it will go away, I am sure it will! <3 As for your teen, you are so smart to walk away when she tries to start a arguement, I have learned to do this with my dh, as well. Sometimes ppl just 'get in a mood' and want to argue...I try really hard to do get pulled into one! I hope you are feeln better today, and that you can have some good dreams and sleep tonite. Hugs, shasta
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Mon, 06-27-2005 - 6:49pm
WOOOWWWWWW, Sheri Ann!!! You should feel on top of the world! I can just imagine how wonderful you are feeling! I am extremely jealous! Your story sounds so much like mine, I too can't even go visit my mom :0( And it makes me sad...But I am getting much better about going out, I went out everyday last week Monday-Friday. So hearing your story really gives me ALOT of inspiration. You should feel very proud, because your weekend was a major success and accomplishment. Thanx so much for sharing your triumph with us! It is VERY encouraging! hugs, shasta
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Mon, 06-27-2005 - 7:41pm
Hi Jan, Thanx for asking....Well....I think I had a little harder weekend than normal, and I am SO MAD AT MYSELF because it is my own darn fault! I had a REALLY GOOD week, went out everyday, and even went somewhere that I hadn't been in a while (a garden store) that I love, and it was a smidge farther than I had gone. I think I was so excited that I had done so well, I messed myself up into thinking I could do even more...So Saturday I started thinking...Geez if I did that good, maybe I could possible make it to sit somewhere and get a hair cut (I have not had a cut in over 2 years, and my hair is just thrashed girls! pretty scary!) but the more I thought about doing it, the anxiety crept back in...Then I thought well, maybe I won't get a haircut, that might be too much right now...So I thought maybe I can make it to Old Navy, I really need to get some shorts for the 4th holiday, mine are wearing pretty thin (I am such a cow now!hee hee!) That was yesterday, I started thinking of going to ON and started getting really anxious, To get there I would have to go farther than normal and also drive across a bridge on the Willamette River. So I chickened out...I am so mad at myself, because I am the one that created my anxiety...So I 'took the day' of today, and told myself I didn't have to go anywhere...But I think I might be doing myself a diservice, so tomorrow, I am going back out into the big world again, even if it is just for a few minutes. I know the more I go out, and more often I go out, it gets easier every time. And evenually I will make it to get a haircut, and to buy some clothes! I just know it! I think I got a little overconfident but maybe that is what I needed...I don't know...So I am just gonna keep going for it this week, and do as much as I feel I can, and try to push myself a little farther each time. I guess we all have our bad and good days, right?
Thanx for listening gals.
Your success stories are so encouraging to me, Please keep sharing!
Hugs, shasta
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Mon, 06-27-2005 - 8:15pm

Shasta, I finally took the scissors out and trimmed my own hair. My hair is long, almost to my waist and the ends were looking mighty shabby! I dyed it today, haven't even done that in months & months. Just keep your head up & keep on going. I'm very afraid of "over doing it". One set-back & I will take a big step back, I don't want that to happen at this point. Traveling this weekend might set me back, too, I'm so afraid of the car & I know there will lots of traffic, especially in NYC. I'm hoping I can sleep through most of the trip - that's my plan!! lol Anyways, I look forward to the day I can go bet my hair highlighted & cut, I understand how you feel completely!

Sheri Ann

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Mon, 06-27-2005 - 8:34pm
OMG our similarities crack me up! I have cut my hair (probably why it looks so thrashed! hee hee!) And my hair is really long too!
And I too need to color my hair. I have used clairol Frost and Tip highlighting since I was 18! Now my once brown hair is almost solid highlighted blond...I think even if I did get my hair cut, the ppl would laugh at me b/c my hair is in such terrible condition!
Oh well, Where I would go to get it cut, they have so much turnover, I would probably never see that person again! LOL! So hopefully I will make it there soon! ;0)
I wish you luck on your trip this weekend, I know you will do GREAT! :0D You have done so well. Thanx too, for your words of support. hugs, shasta

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