Something I wanted to share...

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Registered: 01-17-2001
Something I wanted to share...
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Tue, 06-28-2005 - 12:36pm

Hi all,


I am reading the book "When Bad Things Happen to Good People" by Harold S. Kushner. I was just reading through it and I read a paragraph that I felt applied to me in some ways. I wanted to share.


This applies to me because before I got anxiety and dh got sick I was thinking about leaving him in the future. I was even putting some money aside just in case. It wasn't that I didn't love him, I just didn't feel as though we were compatable anymore. I felt as though we were maybe better off as friends. We were

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Registered: 02-28-2005
Tue, 06-28-2005 - 1:37pm

Hi Heather -

Thanks for that inspirational thought. Your story definitely hits home with me too. I just posted some of my new feelings a couple of minutes ago, if you wouldn't mind taking a look ... I hope that, like what you related, is what I'm going through ... I feel so guilty - nothing is bad in my life, I have no major problems - but I'm still so miserable and hurting. Recently, every time I feel like I take a step forward, a couple of hours later I worry that I've taken two steps back. The best thing I have going in my life is my loving BF - I can't risk losing him because of this darn anxiety. Two months ago, I never imagined I'd be going through this right now - doubting our relationship and my love and feelings toward me. It hurts me so bad. I love him so much - I know that, I really do, but right now, I feel so numb - no emotion, just anxiety.

I guess maybe I just needed to vent, but I can't seem to find any answers.

Take care - hope you're day is going well.

MB

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Registered: 03-11-2004
Tue, 06-28-2005 - 9:30pm
I read that book several years ago, Heather. It is the best! It helped me put things in perspective. I had a crisis of faith & thought God was punishing me with the panic attacks. That book gave me a whole new life without guilt & fear of the God I always knew was there for me. I was temporarily off my path, but got myself situated again. Thx for reminding me! (((hugs))) jan



 

 


 



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Registered: 01-26-2005
Tue, 06-28-2005 - 10:38pm

Thanks, Heather. Your story is inspirational. And, the quote is thought-provoking. I'll have to check out that book.

Renee