i feel so down

iVillage Member
Registered: 01-31-2005
i feel so down
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Thu, 07-07-2005 - 4:11am
thanks for everyone who wrote me. i am thankful that they have these message boards.im still worry myself sick.its terriable now im stuck on hiv. i dont know why. i get really scared... i just got test like i said about a little less then 2 years ago.. i dont have insurance right now so i cant afford to get tested. and for my anxiety im not taking meds and im not go to therapy either, cant afford it. im scared to think i'll be 20 and i fear death so much, as well us cancers tumors all that yucky stuff. i just got sold sores on my lips on the out side of them on the bottom lip and there worring me. again i start thinking what if its cause i have aids... im so scared. i hurt my heart aches i feel like just i dont know.im confused.my b/f is tring to be supportive but hes never been through this with anyone(about anxiety disorder) hes tring so hard but i feel like when i start thinking and telling him about hiv im worring him and what if he gets worried and scared about it, idont wont him to be scared i love him with all my heart all i want (we want) is to live a happy life. get married have kids all that good thinks. hes 30 so hes more mature and thats nice to have around. i just dont know what to do.. please some help me . im scared.. could i have hiv. i dont even know why i think that but i cant stop thinking about i t. ANA
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Registered: 03-11-2004
Thu, 07-07-2005 - 8:14am
I am sorry to hear about this, Ana. Many of us have had irrational fears & relationship problems as the result of our anxiety. I can't tell you if you have
 

 


 



iVillage Member
Registered: 01-17-2001
Thu, 07-07-2005 - 10:26am

Hi Ana,


Do you have a local clinic where you could go and get tested and pay on a sliding scale or not at all? That may just put your mind at ease.


As far as your boyfriend goes, maybe you both can go to the library or Barnes and Noble and buy a book and anxiety, that way you could both learn more together.


keep posting and let usw know how you are doing....


((HUGS))

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