feeling crazy and panic disorder:(ahhhhh
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| Fri, 07-29-2005 - 1:00am |
hello everyone-
there is soooo much going on in my life right now....i'm going back to the work force after almost 1 year off due to the birht of my son, i'm putting my son in day care, i'm working on weaning him off of breast feeding...so its "understandable" that my anxiety keeps coming up...but i'm really tired of having it!
My biggest "fear" is that I will go crazy and not be able to take care of myself let alone my family and son. I worry that i will have to quit my job because I'll become agoraphobic again, and that i'll just want to sit in a corner and rock back and forth all day (again)....
ironcially enough, i am a therapist, and i am starting my job in a hosptial psychatric unit (in patient), as a therapist. i Know that i will be able to be a good therapist if i can keep my anxiety at bay, but i worry that i won't be able to, and i'll have to quit and let everyone down...
ahhh...i could go on and on and on with this , "i worry that...' thinking, i know it's not productive. i am trying to 'write' out my feelings, but i am wondering....does anyone else here have these fears...specifically of going crazy like this/
thanks everyone
heather

Hi, Heather! That's alot of major life changes you're going through right now. Keep it slow & steady. Make time for yourself. Be especially kind to yourself, too. I wish you lots of luck. Everything you have planned is *doable* & has been done by many of us.
The *what if* thinking & fears of going crazy come with anxiety territory. The positive self talk is very helpful to me when I get in anxiety mode. TBH, once you get to work you won't have time to worry about the return of anxiety. Keeping physically busy & mentally distracting yourself from the concerns is usually all it takes. Have you considered meditation? That is something that you can use on your break or lunch to relax & put your mind @ rest.
The fear of going crazy is very real to us, but it isn't very realistic. I think you know that as a therapist. Keep writing your thoughts down or vent on the board. That's what we're here for. Good luck to you & let us know how work goes. (((hugs))) jan