I am scared..

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Registered: 01-17-2001
I am scared..
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Fri, 07-29-2005 - 9:30pm

Hi girls,


I have been doing so well but I just need so positive thoughts and some support.


This past week has been AWFUL. I have the feeling that something terrible is going to happen and that I am going crazy. I have the unreal feelings back again and I feel as though I am always shaking. I haven't had a panic attack YET but I have fought off many.


i am so scared that all the work I have done has disappered and that this really is my life, this is all I have to look forward to. that is a scary thought. I have a great life and I just don't understand whats going on.


I did go to the pool today and grocery shop.. their is NO WAY that I'm letting this stop me from doing things. I just can't let that happen.


I saw my tdoc and my pdoc yesterday and they are both happy with my progress. NOW THIS! I somehow think they are wrong about me. That I am different from other anxiety people.


I am being baptised sunday with

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Registered: 04-18-2003
In reply to: mom_mrs_t
Fri, 07-29-2005 - 10:07pm

((Heather)) I'm so sorry you are going through this right now. I just wrote a short novel & POOF it was deleted, I don't know what the heck key I hit on this new laptop that causes that to happen :( Do you keep a journal? Maybe if you look back through your "old" posts, you will see that you always get through these rough times okay. I've been fighting off anxiety all day today, I'm not sure why although it was one of those rainy days when you just want to sleep. Of course, ds woke me up earlier than usual, so I've just been so tired all day which could be adding to it. With you Baptism coming up, maybe you're anxious because of the significance of this day? I will keep you in my thoughts & prayers. Keep smiling, Sunday is going to be a great day for you!

Sheri Ann

Sheri Ann

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Registered: 03-11-2004
In reply to: mom_mrs_t
Fri, 07-29-2005 - 10:54pm
I am not a spiritual advisor, Heather. But when my anxiety was @ it's worst, I felt that God was punishing me. I don't believe that anymore. Anxiety is just a part of life & when it strikes, it's a very bad part. Your's isn't any sort of test in my mind. I have alot more years of experience to share & I can assure you that this will pass. You will move ahead & will NOT go crazy. I hope & pray that your baptism on Sunday will bring you closer to God & give you the peace your searching for. You deserve it! For someone who is being tested, God has certainly given you the ability to witness & be a true inspiration to us. Sending P&PT's your way. (((hugs))) jan



 

 


 



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Registered: 04-07-2003
In reply to: mom_mrs_t
Fri, 07-29-2005 - 11:48pm
Heather You have made so much progress and in a short time!!
You need to remember this--- remember your strength
You are NOT GOING CRAZY and never coming back--- I know that
feeling so well! I am old and have felt that way for so long
it should have happened by now--- but I AM FINE!!
The unreal feeling is helping you cope with the anxiety
your brain can not handle the stress!! RELAX breathe as you
know how!! Sunday is a BIG DAY!! Sometimes good things bring
anxiety since excitement can feel like anxiety in some ways!!
YOU WILL BE OK! I hope you are sleeping by now but this night owl
is going to bed too! I saw a neat idea write on a piece of paper
Heather is going crazy then put a HUGE X threw it and look at it!
I thought that was a good idea???? HUGS HEATHER!! Judy
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Registered: 07-08-2005
In reply to: mom_mrs_t
Sat, 07-30-2005 - 9:32am
hi heather- just wanted to give you a few hugs of encouragement- the anxiety can grip us and make us think it is not going to get better- but these things shall pass- you have such a beautful, loving. supportive family. it is wonderful that you are getting baptized on Sunday- a rebirth, renewal, rededication to the important things in life. Yuo have taken all of the right steps for yourself. You are making it one day at a time. It is not easy, but you are doing it.
my thoughts and prayers,
elaine
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Registered: 01-17-2001
In reply to: mom_mrs_t
Sat, 07-30-2005 - 11:17am

(((Sheri Ann)))


you were just saying how well you were doing with no anxiety. I'm sorry that you had a rough day. I hope that today is a better one.


Thank you for being my friend!!!!

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Registered: 01-17-2001
In reply to: mom_mrs_t
Sat, 07-30-2005 - 11:20am

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Registered: 01-17-2001
In reply to: mom_mrs_t
Sat, 07-30-2005 - 11:21am

Judy,


Thats is a GREAT idea. i am going to try it!!! You always know that right things to say to me (:


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Registered: 01-17-2001
In reply to: mom_mrs_t
Sat, 07-30-2005 - 11:23am

elaine,


Thank you for all of your kind words. You are going through a lot yourself and I really appricate you taking the time to support me... THANK YOU!

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