1 THING DOESN'T BELONG
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1 THING DOESN'T BELONG
| Wed, 08-03-2005 - 5:34pm |
I LIVE IN A HOME WITH A HUSBAND, TWO CHILDREN AND A WONDERFUL MOTHER IN LAW. eVERYONE HERE IS ABLE TO COPE WITH LIFE WITHOUT HAVING PANIC AND ANXIETY ATTACKS AND BEING SEVERELY DEPRESSED. ONEOF THESE THINGS DOESN'T BELONG HERE AND IT IS ME. wHY AM I LIKE THIS AND WHY CAN'T I GET MYSELF OUT OF THIS. I HAVE LIVED THE LAST 17PLUS YEARS OF MY 40 FOR MY KIDS AND THEY ARE GOOD KIDS. I AM SO MISERABLE. THE PAXIL REALLY HASN'T KICKED IN YET- ONLY 1 WEEK- AFTER 2 WEEKS ON LEXAPRO WITHA BAD SIDEEFFECT- THE ATIVAN IS KEEPING ME TRANQUIL BUT NOT REALLY HELPING MY DEPRESSION. i AM SORRY FOR BEING SO SELF INVOLVED BUT I CAN'T GET OUTSIDE OF MYSELF NOW- UNLESS IT IS FOR MY KIDS OR MOTHER IN LAW. I JUST WANT TO SEE THE LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL. I DON'T WANT TO LIVE LIKE THIS ANYMORE- I WANT THINGS TO ChANGE.
THANKSFOR LISTENING.
THANKSFOR LISTENING.

I remember the panic attacks non stop about 10 years ago.
I take Paxil it took about 2 to 3 weeks and then I
noticed a big change!! It was a miracle to me- I had
been fighting anxiety and panic attacks for so many years
when it was gone I was in shock!! I did not know what
other people felt like before--- I STILL get stressed don't
get me wrong but not to the point I was before!
IT TAKES TIME!! PLEASE GIVE IT TIME!! I don't know how else to
help you I wished I could gather you up and take you somewhere
where you would be happy!! GOD BLESS YOU HOLD ON PEACE IS COMING!!
Email me if you want! Judy jrmack@hotmail.com
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We care about you, Elaine. Talking like this serves no purpose other than to bring you even more *down.* Your words seem to indicate that you have given up on life & it's just a few small connections left to your kids to keep you here with us. I consider these threats of suicide.
Elaine,
I HAVE BEEN where you are and I remember thinking that i was going to end wanting to kill myself if i didn't get better fast.
So each day went by and I took it one minute -LITERALLY- at a time. Some days all I did was lay in bed, i would get up to get the Boys a pop tart or something but I wasn't being a mother at all. I was worthless at the moment. Those were my darkest moments.. BUT I decided to FIGHT with all I have. I WILL NOT let this ruin my life.
Elaine, you don't deserve to feel this way about yourself. Your family cares about you, and I know they don't want you to feel like you don't belong. One thing i've learned from my struggles with anxiety is that you can't compare yourself to other people, we all deal with stress differently. Much like