Wondering if..

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Registered: 03-27-2003
Wondering if..
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Thu, 08-04-2005 - 4:47pm

I'd be welcome back here. lol

It has been a long time..yet I would love to be able to gain some support and friends etc again here.

I'm not going into the whole ordeal today for I am just kinda stressed out and need to unwind, but things have changed for good and bad..and I am in need of support, an ear, etc.

One question before I leave the computer for the evening is..does a lot of changes/losses cause increased stress/anxiety? Can it hinder my progress of agora? For over the last 4 mths not even..alot has gone on again..and losses.

Thank you,

((hugs)) Jen

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Registered: 03-11-2004
In reply to: jl03
Thu, 08-04-2005 - 4:58pm

See that steamin' cup of herbal tea up there? That's for you, Jen. You are welcome to share it with us. For goodness sake's gf, come on in & sit a spell. You've been missed.


Yes. Losses, both real or imagined, ranging from financial security to *thinking* someone is mad @ you can throw us into an anxiety tailspin. Just too much stress & pressures of life are triggers for most everyone who posts here. Good luck & please keep in touch. (((hugs))) jan



 

 


 



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Registered: 03-27-2003
In reply to: jl03
Thu, 08-04-2005 - 5:38pm

Thank you Jan..

you have always been kind..kind hearted etc. Thank you.

i will spill it all..just feeling overwhelmed, lost and yeah alone. I want to get out of this hump, i want to understand some things if i can, and I want to get back on my feet again. This has been to long of a fight and what i really want/need is a place/people that I can count on ;) lol.

just abit..I lost 3 very close friends. One was my support person. Yes they were all over the internet but ..still..its a loss i think. One loss in part. I will neverr understand..for that person even said i did no 'wrong'...

then yes abit of finacial crap , and on top of that when I didn't need anymore..i had my 'supportive' parents , NOT, tell me I belong in an institution once again. (i have gotten this ever since the agora hit) and well that hurts...just got told that today..of all days when the only thing I really needed was you are going to be ok...or a hug or something positive yk?

anyhow..i've been on the phone all day rectifying, /trying to, some of the bigger issues..and i'm tired out emotionally. Then having to defend myself to my parents on the phone today when i called..:( :( :( when in reality I called for a listening ear..I should know by now that they do not understand this disorder but he words still hurt.

ok..enough letting it out for now. (yeah I have began to start slowly opening up again in fear of rejection..not right I know..) I just..I don't know lolol wanna just pop a tylenol and lay in bed now. Major headache prob from crying.

Thanks for letting me 'steam' abit tonight. Thank you for listening.

I shall write more tom. or later

((((((hugs)))))) jen




Edited 8/4/2005 5:41 pm ET ET by jl03
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Registered: 10-17-2004
In reply to: jl03
Thu, 08-04-2005 - 5:44pm

Welcome Jen:)


Well, I'm kind of a float in and outer and I think it is wonderful that you are back here!

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Registered: 03-27-2003
In reply to: jl03
Thu, 08-04-2005 - 7:06pm

Thanks :) I'll prob pass on chat cuz i'm just tired..but we'll see. I do think i need to just curl up in abit like i said i was going to and do some breathing etc, watch some tv and try and just let go..and start again tommorrow.

((hugs)) jen




Edited 8/4/2005 7:21 pm ET ET by jl03
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Registered: 10-17-2004
In reply to: jl03
Thu, 08-04-2005 - 7:26pm

Jen,


well, we'll miss getting to know you tonight, but I completely understand, maybe another time.

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Registered: 03-19-2003
In reply to: jl03
Thu, 08-04-2005 - 7:57pm
Hi Jen!!

Blessings, Suz   Posts in this Community   

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Registered: 04-18-2003
In reply to: jl03
Thu, 08-04-2005 - 10:43pm

Hi Jen, I can totally relate to your parent problems. Mine are the same way. They don't understand and probably never will. It's sad, really. Without getting into a long story, my dad resents the fact that I can't go to "normal" events because of my phobias. He has made horrible remarks to be about it & my mom just supports what he says. I often call them hoping that they will make me feel better, but they drag me down. Coming here was good for me & I am sure it will be for you. We understand!!

Sheri Ann

Sheri Ann

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Registered: 05-18-2005
In reply to: jl03
Fri, 08-05-2005 - 12:14pm
Hello Jen, I am new to this board, it's been a couple of months. I am sure you are welcomed back.....you know the least little thing will bring my anxiety back. It doesn't even have to be big and I am like you we have had so many changes, losses, financial insecurity, divorce in our family that I have been stressed for a while. This board has helped me so much. We are all in this together, and help each other out. So anytime, you need to vent, just go for it. JanW
Jan
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Registered: 03-27-2003
In reply to: jl03
Fri, 08-05-2005 - 4:08pm

mel ty for thinking of me..means alot

Suz I am so sorry to hear about your dh. You and your family are in my thoughts

Sheri Ann Ty for your understanding and yes it is hard when parents don't understand, critisice etc..((hugs))

JanW: ty as well. I'm sorry for your struggles to, and yes we are in this together..

Yes change/things out of the blue etc..is a part of life..but how do you keep your chin up all the time? How do you let go of losses and move on alone to defeat this as well as to regain happiness, and confidence for i have lost some along the way.

I guess I'm struggling. I guess I don't want to be alone and I guess the continuing words of my parents telling me over and over again i need to be in a hospital etc..is making me coocoo lololol.

I don't want to start to doubt others..but i find i am..i find that i am VERY much more cautious now..and I hate it. Will this pass?

Ok lots of questions..thoughts..

I just want to get back out again..and i want peace.

Thank you, ((hugs))
Jen

more to come lol...

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Registered: 05-20-2004
In reply to: jl03
Fri, 08-05-2005 - 4:19pm

I guess peace is what we are all looking for. I hope you find some soon. I am struggling with some things also but I feel like my problems are nothing compared to others.

My deepest hope is for everybody that is so caring on this board to have some peace and be able to enjoy at least some time in life without the anxiety, panic and/or phobia that ails them.

Sorry I don't have any adivce.

Alison