It's been an emotional week

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It's been an emotional week
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Wed, 08-10-2005 - 1:12pm

I'm sitting here typing, knowing that I am still procrastinating. Because I do work on the computer, it's entirely too easy to spend a lot of time online. Luckily, I've started to clean my tiny little abode.

Where am I going with this ... I'm still having a lot of problems procrastinating--there are things I want to do, but I don't, and I haven't in a while. I'm not sure why. Well, I know there's an emotional component. I've been a bit weepy this week (hello, preggo hormones!), and I've found myself reading mental health stuff on other boards.

I also had a disagreement w/Alex earlier this week about the baby, but we've since worked it out. I admitted that yepper, I do have a problem with communicating properly. I tend to get too worked up if I disagree with something--and he tends to think that I am disagreeing just to prove something and not to really disagree. After comparing me to my brother , well, yeah, I really want to change that. I may have recognized this before, but I'm going to ask my doc for help with this, because I don't want to end up like my parents, who just got so tired of each other that they don't really communicate.

Thank God for yet another therapy appointment, though, on Thursday. We had one last week, but Alex was very stressed out about work, and I allowed him to have the floor on that because it was affecting us in that we fought about the credit card. He's just buried in work, so I haven't really talked-talked about stuff yet this weekend. I'm trying to be supportive. I think waking up at 5:30 or 6 a.m. to help him get ready is a good start. I finally started napping in the morning again. Ahhh. It is so easy to do that when pregnant.

So yeah, I feel like there's always this list, and then I'm told to do one thing at a time, and oh, there's just so much. And don't even get me started on how we have to prepare to move into our house and get ready for baby. Luckily I can wait till after my baby shower on Saturday (yep, I'm having two) to see what I still need to get. I'm flying to Florida for that on Friday. Then in September my brother is visiting for a week, which is a whole other ball of wax. He's never stayed for a whole week, so I hope I can handle any idiosyncracies without losing my cool (he is bipolar, living at home, on meds, and finally working at a job for more than a few weeks, but I'm still skittish because he can be negative at times).

Well, I just needed to get that out. Thanks. :)

Kendra
(25 weeks preggo)

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Wed, 08-10-2005 - 5:03pm

Are you pregnant by any chance??? LOL Honestly, what you're experiencing is pretty normal. Both times I was pregnant, I bit off way more than I could chew. When I brought Jasmine home, she had to sleep on my chest because the crib wasn't set up. My excuse has always been that she came a month early. That was true, but... I expected too much from myself.


Try to take things a day @ a time, Kendra. Those hormones will flare up & cause disagreements. You & Alex have to make room for them. Love is a two way street.

 

 


 



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Wed, 08-10-2005 - 6:16pm

Thanks, Jan. Yeah, my brother agreed to help with the move. He suggested we close at the end of August so he could help. I'm hoping to have him drive me around with a bunch of boxes. That would be the best. That and any lifting. He's finally lost some weight, so that is good.

My brother has been so coddled throughout his life that I have a hard time seeing him help me with much else, but maybe.

And yes, I love to nap! I don't do it often enough, but I just crawled into bed and was out like a light.

Thanks for the good word about the hormones. Sometimes it's hard to tell if it's the hormones or the depression or the anxiety. One day at a time sounds good, though. You said it best. :)

Kendra

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Wed, 08-10-2005 - 9:25pm
Hey Kendra-I hope you are feeling better tonite!
That is a great idea to have your bro help with the move, That will take the pressure off of you, by not having to be stuck in the house with him for the week, and will also help you and Alex with the lifting and stuff. I think it will help your brother too.
So you are leaving Friday? I will miss our chats, maybe I will hear from you while you are down at your folks. Hang in There, kido! You are doing GREAT for having such a hard week! Keep Smilin'! Your Friend, shasta
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Wed, 08-10-2005 - 11:58pm
Hi Kendra!!!

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Fri, 08-19-2005 - 10:14pm

Thank you, as always, for your insightful wisdom. :) I will post a more thorough update upon my return to Virginia. Right now, I'm in Florida and about to go to my parents' house tomorrow.

:)

Kendra