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Help! I don't know what to do!
| Wed, 08-10-2005 - 11:54pm |
I was seeing a psychologist for my OCD but I didn't feel comfortable with her so I stopped going. Now I regret it deeply because my anxiety is starting to ruin my life. I can't sleep at night and I wake up several times, my hands shake, my heart races, I have continuous headaches and nausea, and I feel constantly on edge. I feel completely helpless. I am terrified that something bad is going to happen. It has been building up slowly over the last few months but has reached a peak recently. In two weeks I start college for the first time and I am completely petrified. I now avoid all stores that sell stuff for dorm rooms and college life. I visited the college and almost had a panic attack in the showers because I thought someone was going to walk in on me, even though no one was there. I'm paranoid that someone is hiding in my room or standing over me with a knife, waiting for me to sleep so he can hurt me and I don't know how to stop it. I feel like I'm going crazy. I have always been jumpy but now even the slightest noise scares me terribly. My parents have no idea this is going on and even enjoy scaring me! I've developed a phobia of spiders and webs which is really bad because I have long blonde hair that startles me several times a day when I mistake it for a web. When I was seeing a psychotherapist, she suggested medication but I would have to see a psychiatrist which was almost impossible as she should have known because I'm also a social phobic. I'm thinking of seeing the doctor on campus and taking the medication anyway, but I'm scared at how I will react to it. Does anyone else have the same problems or know how I could deal with them? I feel like I'm all alone in this because no one else I know seems to understand. They think I'm either crazy or making it up.

Hi adair!
Blessings, Suz
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