sick and tired

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Registered: 05-16-2005
sick and tired
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Sun, 08-14-2005 - 11:58pm

hello everyone,sorry I have not been posting.although I do read what is going on.I am so angry with myself lately.I am so sick of feeling like I am from another planet.anxiety has always prevented me from doing things I want so bad.fear always takes over unbearable fear.I spent my whole summer planning for something I wanted and on the day it came I totally flipped and went into my shell and just panicked.now I am so sad mad and angry at myself for backing out.now I am even more down bcuz I did that!constantly saying WHY WHY WHY?just thinking about how scared I was is making me have anxiety.as long as I do nothing in my life I am somewhat ok.I am so tired of this and angry.I do not take meds for this either cuz once again it causes fear.my bf says he thinks I am at the verge of taking a positive step.but I am getting really depressed and losing my focus.he says what I did is not that big of a deal but it is bcuz I wanted it and anxiety stopped me and that is why I am mad at myself.my doc.put me on lexapro but I here it makes ppl flip out.so I don't want to take it.I here of so many therapies cognitive behavior therapy, hypnotherapy,regular therapy what are all these and how will they help?I do everything for everyone else but when I want to do for me I panic.will meds and therapy help with fear and all this.my anxiety is not like it was 12 yrs ago,its gotten better at least I can leave the house unless it gets really bad.which I don't want to happen.

 

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Registered: 03-11-2004
Mon, 08-15-2005 - 12:34am

I'm sorry to hear how things have been going, Jeanie. You have been missed. Many of us can relate to feeling angry & let down when our anxiety gets in the way of our plans. There have been times I thought I was the biggest disappointment to my friends & family because the panic set in & kept me from attending functions that I promised to attend. I have learned to go easy on myself. Not make excuses, mind you. But tell myself that I will work harder for the next time. That I will begin again with a clean slate & not hold on to my anger & disappointment.


The meds do help, Jeanie. I have never heard of ppl flipping out from lexapro. Alot of our community take it with much success. The goal of all therapy is to make you aware of patterns in your behavior that aren't good for you. Also, therapists help us learn new ways to cope with anxiety. Meds & therapy are tools. You will still be yourself, but better equipped to handle stress & anxiety.


I'm glad you're back. Please stick around & drop into chat. We care. Good luck & GBU! (((hugs))) jan