I am Very Needy Today - Need Advice

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I am Very Needy Today - Need Advice
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Thu, 08-25-2005 - 4:29pm

My oldest DD will start kindergarten next Friday. We have orientation for her to meet her teacher and see her classroom tomorrow and she is very excited. I on the other hand am a mess. To top it all off, there is a orientation tonight for parents new to the school which I must attend alone because my DH is working. We are not really even moved completely into our new neighborhood so I am pretty sure I will not know anyone and not knowing anything about how schools work these days I am afraid I will not ask the questions I need to for fear of someone thinking I am stupid. It may sound really weird because I am 36, but I don't really feel like a full fledged parent yet. I have two beautiful DDs and have been parenting them pretty good as far as I can tell (with help from DH). I am always complimented on how polite and kind my oldest is. Anyway, I just don't feel like I belong with all the "real" parents and hate that I have to go by myself.

OMG - I sound so selfish. I am wallowing in self pity for something that is so insignificant but can't help myself. I have already taken 3 xanax today to calm me down and am afraid I will need more before the school visit.

Any pointers on how to feel comfortable in this situation. Should I approach people or wait until I am approached? We have already had visits from neighbors as we are preparing the house for our move so I am sure the community is very warm and welcoming. I just am thinking irrationally if you guys can imagine that. :)

Thanks for letting me vent. I feel a little better now. Maybe someone can tell me I won't come off as a complete loon and then I will feel even better. If you think I am going to come off as a loon, please don't reply. (just kidding).

Thanks for reading my long rant.

Alison

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Mon, 08-29-2005 - 9:02am

I did good this morning and yesterday going over DDs school information. I have my DH dropping her off because I knew today my anxiety was going to surface and I didn't want to project that on her.

I too thought that all of the schools had peanut bans. Not so, apparently. The teacher was just not very concerned about it and that definitely bothers me. I told DH that he need to make sure the teacher understood when he drops DD off today and to also talk to the nurse when he gives her the epi-pens. The teacher will not administer the epi-pens but the nurse or health technician will. I hope it doesnt' come to that. My DD is very good about asking if things have peanuts in them before she will eat them. I trust her more than her teacher at this point. This woman has been teaching for 19 years. This can't be the first child she has had with a food allergy.

Anyway, I anxiously await a call from DH to let me know how things went dropping her off.

She is very excited and I hope she has a good experience from the start.

I know everything will be okay, it's just that darned anxiety rearing its ugly head.

Thanks for the thoughts.

Alison

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Mon, 08-29-2005 - 9:04am

Thanks. I think I will be better once the first day is through and she comes home with good stuff to say about her experience. (optimism)

I now know what people mean by things being harder on the parents than on the kids.

Alison

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