Can I wear out my welcome?

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Registered: 05-29-2003
Can I wear out my welcome?
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Thu, 08-25-2005 - 6:33pm

Hi,
I am in major anxiety mode right now, and this is the only place for me to turn. I took a xanax, and I do feel a little more calm. My son had an awful playdate today, and I can't stop thinking about it. Big woop, right? They are five year old boys! They are going to bicker. Why do I think it's the end of the world. I feel like because they argued, she won't want my son over anymore (or be my friend anymore, what's the real issue here, right??)

My girlfriend still has not called me back, and I am still worried that she is upset with me. I know, same old/same old stuff from me. I can't help it. I am all alone, and I have nowhere else to turn. I wish I had all of your strength. You all seem to give such solid advice, and I am trying to be more positive. My anxiety and rumination seems to be getting so much worse. I can't let anything go, and I have so much on my mind. (husbands job, hard marriage, two small children, father's death, husband opening a new business and not taking a paycheck for over a year now.) Lots of stuff to worry about and I am focusing on the ridiculous stuff that no-one cares about. I am coming out of my skin!!

Thank you for listening, and I hope I don't wear out my welcome on this board. No one wants to hear my stuff, and really, no one understands that I do not choose to have this anxiety problem. Thank you to anyone listening.

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Registered: 05-16-2005
Thu, 08-25-2005 - 10:39pm

i swear we are our own worst critic.i used to worry about the same things you do,will they like me,do i sound stupid,do they think my kid is dumb,is my home ugly to them,will they think i am crazy,and so on....then the day came where i guess to be blunt about it,i just didnt care what ppl thought of me.i am my own person and for every 1 person that didnt like me 10 more would.stop and listen to what you say to youself.these ppl more then likely are not thinking anything at all.your the one thinking it.someone once told me to look at other faces and notice everyone is busy with there own things and didnt want mine.does your friend make you feel uncomfortable?does she see your weekness?i have had ppl see that in me and

 

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Fri, 08-26-2005 - 12:08am

 

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Registered: 06-18-2003
Fri, 08-26-2005 - 1:39am
Hi, I heard myself in your post so I thought I'd just try to offer some support....I hate it when I get in a situation like you seem to be, where you feel like no one "gets" it or cares or wants to hear it anymore. I guess the best advice I've ever gotten for that situation is to find women who do understand anxiety, and talk to them about it. This board is a great start, if you can find some women in your community, that's even better. Just know that you're definitely not alone...
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Registered: 05-18-2005
Sat, 08-27-2005 - 4:06pm
Hi there, I feel the same way. It's awful having this anxiety and not being able to talk about it with people who don't get it. I don't want this, but I have it and it helps to be able to vent to people who know. I hope we don't wear out our welcome on this board, it's a lifesaver. We just got back from vaca at the Lake of the Ozarks, and I should be feeling great right!!!! Wrong, I feel so down and stressed out about things at home again. Why can't I let things go.....I's just so hard. I was feeling really good while we were gone and now it's back!!!! My dh has his own business too and that can be very stressful, plus my son is going thru a divorce and is also starting his own business and I am helping with the books and that is very stressful. Oh well, things will get better.....Sorry this is so long. I just had to get it out LOL. JanW
Jan
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Registered: 04-07-2003
Sat, 08-27-2005 - 5:35pm
Hi everyone! I have had this panic stuff for
so many years my family is so used to it they hardly
react anymore!! I feel like I am going to die I must
be my heart is racing I am sweating my butt off, my hands
are numb, my brain cannot think, I feel sick to my stomach
have a major headache, and I hear YOU WILL BE OK!!
YES I will BUT I HATE IT!! When not totally in a panic state
I feel so exhausted and out of it that I feel like I am not
really talking but I AM! I find peace in hypnosis 2 times a
month if I could go into it everyday I SURELY WOULD!!
I was panic free for about 5 years and now it has returned!
I am fighting it but it still breaks through. My friends
have been my friends so long and they try to help-- but
you know what I don't think they can!! I just want someone
to hold my hand and hug me until it is gone so here's a HUG
FOR ALL OF YOU!!! ((((((((((((( YOU ))))))))))))))))
Judy
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Registered: 04-18-2003
Sun, 08-28-2005 - 9:08pm

Jolie, If you're online send me an email through my profile. I tried to email you, but you never entered an email address, I guess.

Sheri Ann

Sheri Ann

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Registered: 07-21-2004
Sun, 08-28-2005 - 9:17pm
Hey SheriAnn, I was going to email you too about our chat the other nite, but I can't seem to get your email address on your profile...
Anyways, Just wanted to say if you ever want to chat more about our dh's work stuff,or anything else, just let me know!
hugs, shasta
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Registered: 04-18-2003
Sun, 08-28-2005 - 9:30pm

I tried to email you thru your profile, and it wouldn't let me, either, lol. My email address is sheriann28532@yahoo.com

Sheri Ann

Sheri Ann

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Registered: 03-11-2004
Mon, 08-29-2005 - 12:02am
Thx, Sheri Ann! I hope you don't mind my having your addy. I have tried to e-mail you a couple of times & your profile says you don't accept e-mails. Nothing important right now, but someday I'll think of something:) It was important @ the time. LOL (((hugs))) jan
 

 


 



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Registered: 04-18-2003
Mon, 08-29-2005 - 12:16am

I edited my board settings so now EVERYONE can email me, lol. I thought that was just automatic, I didn't realize we had to activate it. Thanks Shasta and Jan!!

Sheri Ann

Sheri Ann