Can I wear out my welcome?
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| Thu, 08-25-2005 - 6:33pm |
Hi,
I am in major anxiety mode right now, and this is the only place for me to turn. I took a xanax, and I do feel a little more calm. My son had an awful playdate today, and I can't stop thinking about it. Big woop, right? They are five year old boys! They are going to bicker. Why do I think it's the end of the world. I feel like because they argued, she won't want my son over anymore (or be my friend anymore, what's the real issue here, right??)
My girlfriend still has not called me back, and I am still worried that she is upset with me. I know, same old/same old stuff from me. I can't help it. I am all alone, and I have nowhere else to turn. I wish I had all of your strength. You all seem to give such solid advice, and I am trying to be more positive. My anxiety and rumination seems to be getting so much worse. I can't let anything go, and I have so much on my mind. (husbands job, hard marriage, two small children, father's death, husband opening a new business and not taking a paycheck for over a year now.) Lots of stuff to worry about and I am focusing on the ridiculous stuff that no-one cares about. I am coming out of my skin!!
Thank you for listening, and I hope I don't wear out my welcome on this board. No one wants to hear my stuff, and really, no one understands that I do not choose to have this anxiety problem. Thank you to anyone listening.

i swear we are our own worst critic.i used to worry about the same things you do,will they like me,do i sound stupid,do they think my kid is dumb,is my home ugly to them,will they think i am crazy,and so on....then the day came where i guess to be blunt about it,i just didnt care what ppl thought of me.i am my own person and for every 1 person that didnt like me 10 more would.stop and listen to what you say to youself.these ppl more then likely are not thinking anything at all.your the one thinking it.someone once told me to look at other faces and notice everyone is busy with there own things and didnt want mine.does your friend make you feel uncomfortable?does she see your weekness?i have had ppl see that in me and
so many years my family is so used to it they hardly
react anymore!! I feel like I am going to die I must
be my heart is racing I am sweating my butt off, my hands
are numb, my brain cannot think, I feel sick to my stomach
have a major headache, and I hear YOU WILL BE OK!!
YES I will BUT I HATE IT!! When not totally in a panic state
I feel so exhausted and out of it that I feel like I am not
really talking but I AM! I find peace in hypnosis 2 times a
month if I could go into it everyday I SURELY WOULD!!
I was panic free for about 5 years and now it has returned!
I am fighting it but it still breaks through. My friends
have been my friends so long and they try to help-- but
you know what I don't think they can!! I just want someone
to hold my hand and hug me until it is gone so here's a HUG
FOR ALL OF YOU!!! ((((((((((((( YOU ))))))))))))))))
Judy
Jolie, If you're online send me an email through my profile. I tried to email you, but you never entered an email address, I guess.
Sheri Ann
Sheri Ann
Anyways, Just wanted to say if you ever want to chat more about our dh's work stuff,or anything else, just let me know!
hugs, shasta
I tried to email you thru your profile, and it wouldn't let me, either, lol. My email address is sheriann28532@yahoo.com
Sheri Ann
Sheri Ann
I edited my board settings so now EVERYONE can email me, lol. I thought that was just automatic, I didn't realize we had to activate it. Thanks Shasta and Jan!!
Sheri Ann
Sheri Ann