i need help

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Registered: 05-29-2003
i need help
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Fri, 08-26-2005 - 8:12pm

I'm coming undone. Everything is making me nuts. I am over analizing everything, and I am obsessing over the silliest things. I am sorry to keep posting such negative stuff, but I am so deeply trying to get through this on my own. Does it even matter what I am worried about anymore? It's all about my relationships and friends. I am so concerned about a mom who has a son my son's age. They are completly different, however, I keep asking for the boys to get together because I really like the mom. I know she likes me, but I feel like she is avoiding me because the boys are so different.

I feel like I'm dying.

Help.

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Registered: 03-11-2004
In reply to: jlvst
Fri, 08-26-2005 - 8:37pm

I am sorry to hear this, Jolie. If you feel this badly, then you need to get some *real life* help. Message boards serve a purpose for all of us to share our thoughts & feelings in an attempt to relate to others with similiar problems. I know that our community has given you suggestions. I know I have told you about my own battle with anxiety & panic. When I could NOT help myself, I had to take meds/see a therapist & @ one point was hospitalized.


If you are having thoughts of harming yourself, please call 1-800-SUICIDE. Trained personnel will be available to assist you. Call your doctor or a crisis line of any sort to get the human connection that you require. If you cannot function anymore & that is what it seems you're trying to express, then go to your local ER. You must stay safe & healthy for you to be able to be a good mom to your child. We care. We want you to get the help you need. In this case, professional help may be needed. Good luck & GBU! (((hugs))) jan



 

 


 



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Registered: 04-07-2003
In reply to: jlvst
Fri, 08-26-2005 - 8:58pm
Jolie I don't think trying to do it on your own
is working! I agree with Jan!! You need to see a
doctor- Judy
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Registered: 01-17-2001
In reply to: jlvst
Fri, 08-26-2005 - 10:16pm

Jolie,


"I feel like I'm dying.


Help."


what you said there tells me that doing this on your own just isn't working. You really need to go see a Dr and get the feelings and thoughts out. Their is no reason for you to suffer so much.


Take Care

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Registered: 05-29-2003
In reply to: jlvst
Fri, 08-26-2005 - 10:28pm

Hi there,

This is not the first time I have been uncomfortable with your responses. I do appreciate your honest words, and I appreciate your advice. I do feel that this is a place I can vent my feelings at the worst time of an anxiety attack. I am sure lots of women have felt the way I have. I am not planning on dying anytime soon, and it is just the way I was feeling at the time. I suffer from terrible anxiety, and at times it feels like an elephant is sitting on my chest. This is the first place I have felt I can vent and feel accepted. After reading your post to me, I always feel bad. It's not that I can't accept your advice, because I think you have wonderful things to say. It just feels to me like I am either not your type of person or maybe my posts rub you the wrong way. Either way, please don't respond if they bother you. I really feel like I have no where to go, and this seemed to be a good place for me. Maybe not.

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Registered: 05-29-2003
In reply to: jlvst
Fri, 08-26-2005 - 10:38pm

Hi Jan,

I am ok. Thank you for your response, I was just venting my honest emotions. I am not planning on dying or harming myself. It was a poor choice of expressions. I have read plenty of posts where people seem desperate for releif. This anxiety has been HORRIBLE lately, however, I am all by myself dealing with it. My husband works 7 days a week, and I am burnt out. I know that is nobody's problem, and I certainly hope people understand that I so appreciate the kind words and advice.

In the last year my husband has left his job to start a new business, not had any income and gone through all our savings, my kids have been sick (12 ear infections, roto virus, hand/foot/mouth, etc.., my son broke his leg, my father just passed away 5 weeks ago to lung cancer. Needless to say, it has been a horrendous year, and my anxiety has been building and building.

I am honest in saying that this message board is the first place I have felt normal, and accepted. I hope I am still welcome.

Thanks a bunch, Jolie

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Registered: 01-17-2001
In reply to: jlvst
Fri, 08-26-2005 - 10:41pm

Jolie I just also wanted to mention that I believe the "angry" icon in your post to me uncalled for. I wish you would think twice about doing that to someone who is "trying" to be honest and help you. Maybe it would be best to not have an icon at all.


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Registered: 05-29-2003
In reply to: jlvst
Fri, 08-26-2005 - 10:56pm

I am sorry for the angry icon. No harm meant by it, truly. I am just very frustrated. I know you are trying to help, and I see that. For some reason, though, I take your posts as more harsh. Not saying that you are being hurtful, because you are not. I just percieve them more painfully. I just can't describe what I am trying to say. I guess that you need to know that I do take Lexapro, I was seeing someone, and I take your advice seriously. You have lots to say and I appreciate it. It comes off harsh to me, sometimes. That's all. No harm meant. I am sorry if I upset you. Sometimes my perception is my reality. Which is why I am so anxious. If I could put a smily face icon right here, I would.

I hope I made sense and that I didn't make it worse. UGGG.

JD

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Registered: 04-18-2003
In reply to: jlvst
Fri, 08-26-2005 - 11:15pm
Jolie, It sounds like you have just gone through so much in recent months that it has put you on overload. That's what happened to me, also. Then I'm home with our son 24/7 on top of that - not that I don't want to be with him, but I have no "me" time. I can't remember the last time I had any time to myself. I'm happy to hear you are taking Lexapro, alot of the other members here do well on it. Do you see a pdoc? Just curious, I'm wondering if you need a dose adjustment to take away the painful thoughts. I hope you feel better soon:) It definitely takes time to get through these tough spots.
Sheri Ann

Sheri Ann

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Registered: 05-29-2003
In reply to: jlvst
Sat, 08-27-2005 - 8:32am

THANK YOU! That is exactly what I needed. I really appreciate your kind words. I was seeing a pdoc, but my insurance changed. He charged 165.00. Outragous, I know. I didn't want to stop seeing him, but I had no choice. Right now I am deciding to go with someone on my new plan, however, I hate to start over. It's really hard. I think I need too, though. You are so sweet, and again , THANK YOU for understanding. I can't tell you how much I appreciate it.

Love, JD

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Registered: 04-18-2003
In reply to: jlvst
Sat, 08-27-2005 - 9:31am

After August 30th my family will be without insurance. We're covered under my work union, but I can only be insured for so many months after taking my LOA. I worry how we will pay for my pdoc after that. I don't have an MD here, yet, so I'm at a double loss. The good thing is that I am not on any meds, but I worry and "what if..." alot like many of us do. I keep telling myself to take it one day at a time, but it's not easy. Insurance is soooo important. Starting with a new pdoc isn't necessarily a bad thing. All docs seem to have their own "opinion" of what treatment we need. For example, I was on only xanax 4 x/day from my pdoc. I moved and the new pdoc switched me to ativan (I never made the switch, tho), my workers comp doc wants me on lexapro. So I go back to my new pdoc and tell him about the lexapro suggestion & he tells me I'm doing so well I don't need meds! This in itself was giving me alot of anxiety, lol. Since you do seem to have a case of the "blahs!" you will probably feel much better once you see someone. I do think you just need a minor adjustment in your meds. All the things you are feeling, I felt also when I was having major anxiety & then panic attacks. I was soooo afraid my friends didn't like me, etc... It's an awful way to live. The xanax took all those thoughts away for me while my mind healed a bit. I don't have them at all at this time! Keep in touch.

Sheri Ann

Sheri Ann

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